Notes

july 28/13
Sometimes life sucks. it sucks soooooo bad, I feel like nobody cares about me, I feel worthless all the time, I don't know what's wrong with me! and I don't know how to fix the feelings that I feel....nobody understands me, and when I finally found the man of my dreams who get me, and understands me he starts siding with my mother. like really?! come on. I just have fantastic luck...
My parents are haters....they are heartless people who pretend to care by buying there love. they don't realize that getting yelled at and then buying a bunch of stuff doesn't make up for the yelling.
Oh and I didn't mention how lazy my mother is. She always rags on me and my father about cleaning up when she is actually the messy one! she blames everything on us. Don't even get me started on my brother jaimie, he is the angle child. Probably because he asks for money ALL the time, I don't know what is with my family and money, maybe its just how the world works....anyways if its just my family its crazy because they revolve around money.....and its stupid because my mother always buys useless stuff! Although she does buy fantastic coupons. She is a pack rat, if my father let her buy everything she wanted I know I wouldn't be able to walk in this house, oh about my house, again another thing they always say we should be thankful for the giant house we have but I'm the one who cleans it so why should I be happy? I would be just fine with I small, possibly even a tiny house.
My life is pretty crazy for a 15 year old girl.....I travel a lot, or at least I did this summer. I went to California, Alberta, and of course Burnaby.
Burnaby is where my boyfriend lives, remember the man of my dreams I was telling you about, well his name is ace... he is the biggest sweetheart ever but there are a couple flaws in him, he is overly cocky, and we fight all the time, like almost every day, we just went through out 9 month and right now I'm kind of wondering how long we will last, I mean we have talked about marriage and stuff but were still kind of in the puppy love phase. He says at the end of this year he will take me away from my awful parents to go live in Burnaby with him *Happy.* I really want to go live there with him, but I love my school now and I'm scared my parents will be very upset with me.....we will have been dating long enough though and ill have my L and my boyfriend will have his L this September! (if all goes well, he's a city kid) I am actually the one who taught him how to drive, and I am pretty proud of that, but if he dosnt hit the books soon hes in deep trouble.....im already studying for my L and my birthday was only in may...I gotta ace this test, and ace has so ace it too!