Notes

I don't understand how I can be this for you, but I know you could never mess it up.
Never ever ever ever.
Like I told you before, I'm the only one who could that.
I want to always be your friend
even if we can't really do all those dumb fun things together
even if we don't know everything about each other.
You can be clingy all you want 'cause you're amazing.
I think about you almost all the time, you're just there.
When my worthless piece of trash dad is destroying our household
i can think about you and talk to you and feel good again.
mostly i just think about you 'cause you're in my head.
like the good version of a headached
And I'm scared too, but for different reasons.
I love how much you love me, and I love that I can love you back.
I can't get tired of hearing any of it because it's the best truth I know
But I'm afraid that I'll be the only thing that makes you randomly smile and feel like you're worth everything you are.
Because what if something happens to me (my heart gives out, apocalypse, bombing, etc.) and I can't be here for anymore? What if I'm not what you thought I was, and I ruin everything?
That's what scares me most of all. That's why I wanted you to find someone new to hang out with and make you see how special you really are, so that if I disappeared again everything would be okie-dokie-artichokie.
but that'sdepressingnevermind
i'm never gonna disappear don't worry
i mean, only if you want me to
man i would do anything you want me to do
not in a weird way
shhhh
anyway You're not stupid, you're important and smart and a treasure.
Your feelings aren't stupid either, they're important.
/even if you have a lot of them okay/
I have a tonnnnnn of feelings, and the best part of this confusing existence is sharing them with you
mostly 'cause you give me good ones <3
it's not selfish to want this
it's sweet and amazing and an absolute necessity
too many people don't have as good a friend as you
and that's why you can give me all your problems and have the absolute right to trust me
to know that no matter how much you put on me
I am not going ANYWHERE
imma spell that
I A M N O T G O I N G A N Y W H E R E
i want you
i want your dents and wrinkles and sadness and happiness and dorkiness and animeness and all your problems (big and small) and kindness and sassiness and memes and mistakes and clinginess and everything okay
/i would forego puns for you/
/and i LOVE PUNS/
/A LOT/
your last letter said you loved me more than Bean
I DON'T BELIEVE YOU BY THE WAY CATS ARE AMAZING
i can't say i love you more than diamond. she'smybestcatfriend,igotherinoregonwheniwassix
but you are DEFINITELY EQUALS WITH HER.
you're my favorite people
i love watching movies with you
i love listening to music with you
i love reading you
i love pretending to be near you
also i love you
and DON'T THINK YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WITH PROBLEMS MISTER
(sorry for the yelling it's like the perfect way to emphasize)
I AM A MESS. i am the OG of messes. YES I USED AN ACRONYM
which reminds me of the one part of the poem i remembered
"I feel blessed
to call you my mess."
it's not the best but it was like 2 am i dunno
OKAY I THINK THAT'S GOOD
you are a 10/10 person and i wanna smush you
you're the cheese in my pasta
you're pretty great

all my love plus two,
dorkulon 3000
a.k.a. Sleeves
a.k.a. Leni
a.k.a. Karen
a.k.a. Mr. Banana Beak
a.k.a. Chad the Man

love,
Yuk's other half