i miss you so much, i am beyond sorry that ive done the things ive done to make you now resent me, maybe you dont and im just being ignorant and assuming like youve always told me i did, but i just dont know. i want to let you know that i've moved on, and i wish that things could be the same as they used to be even before our relationship. i know what ive done wrong in both our relationship and post breakup, and ive learned from my many mistakes how to be a better person. the truth is, you are literally the funnest, funniest, most beautiful, and just amazing person ive ever been around, and post breakup i tried to salvage our relationship beyond belief, but i didnt realize that it wasnt possible, and i was in denial over the whole thing. i dont know whatll happen in the future, but i just wanted to let you know that im sorry for not only harrasing you but for being such an ignorant judgmental ass overall, that's not who i am as a person and it reflected off of me terribly. if you conclude anything off of this, please understand that i am a different person now, i dont want to harrass you over the stupidest shit and act like a totally different person then who i really am. i dont know what i could do to help earn your trust and respect back, other then just being myself i suppose, but i do want to earn such, you have been and still are i think an amazing person. im still sorry for lieing to you about who i was, if i had the opportunity to just reveal myself to you before our relationship started, i would, and that would probably mean you wouldn't be interested in me anymore and we wouldnt of gone out, but i think it would have been better for the both of us that way. i wish things were different between us, and i dont know if they will ever be, but i care about you still, and i blame alot of what went wrong in our relationship on myself, as i should. im sorry for being judgmental about not only you, but your friends as well. i never even got to really know them so i had no right to even remotely start judging them. this is not an excuse, but i was just upset with them because of the stories you told me, about how they basically used you for money, you getting a ticket because of them, etc. i know that i still shouldnt of judged them based off that, but that was my reason for doing so. im sorry for everything ive done that just messed everything up, im sorry for killing off our SGOD chat and only fixing it and rectyfing it almost a year later, im sorry for not making you feel appreciated in our relationship, i understand why and i would change that if i ever had the chance. im sorry for making you feel used, i know i tried to do the sexual things with you alot, and it was never because i wanted to use you just for that, i loved being around you and just talking with you, i know it was just uncomfortable for you at times and i understand that now. there are many things id like to talk to you about, but i dont think ill be able to for at least awhile, so with that ill end with this: i figure getting a second chance in our relationship is virtually impossible now, but if anything i would appreciate getting another chance as friends like we once were, this text only shows so much but i think if you could somehow give me another chance, id be even better then i once was.
