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motherfucker. She everything also tell that fucking two teachers. She thought she is the shitty queen of this pathetic world. Like fuck you, who even likes you. You shibal. Fucker. That fucking father also like shit. What the actual fuck. Bullshit. WTF. They like together. OH I WILL TELL YOUR TEACHER. It's my fucking own problem, fuckers. So just sit the fuck down, then fuck off. Heh, I don't need you. I want to learn piano, even told you I learning first grade theory. I WAS SO FREAKING HAPPY. I really want to learn piano. Then you don't allow. Say what affect my fucking studies. I hate you so much that I want to kill you so much right the fuck now. I can type till I die. I really need somebody to help me. I cannot take them anymore. Anything also tell teacher, wait for one day. You thought I would be the same person? The one who says that I will be a doctor, save money for you then let you spend? WRONG! It was in the PAST. Now you are just motherfuckers and bastards who just block my path. I LOVE MUSIC. YOU FUCKERS DON'T YOU KNOW HOW I FEEL. I really want to die with music. I want to learn korean. All they do is to disagree, make me feel angry and sad like now. Typing rant stuff like shit. I hate her so much. Her voice even makes me feel damn annoyed. Just shut the fuck up already. FUCKING STOP TALKING ALREADY. Your fucking accent just makes me sibei embarrassed. I hate you. You biased little faggot. I hate you with all my life. Tell teacher, huh. I hope I can tell at least someone, probably like a ghost. I want to have a ghost friend who can just listen to my everything and be there when I feel damn lonely and FA in school and get my life right, teach me piano, korean and martial arts. I swear her fucking genes is ruining my face. All that acne and pimples, it's all her fault. Without her oily and bitchy face, I wouldn't be like that. All her fault. Plus my dad, he is totally hateman. Everybody hates him. He always show off his math. OHHH OTHER PEOPLE DON'T KNOW THIS, NEXT TIME OK NOW THAT MOTHERFUCKER JUST FUCKING SLAM THE DOOR! SHE IS SUCH A FUCKING MADMAN! LOL FUCKER I HATE HER WHY SHE SCOLD KAKA. ONLY FAGGOTS SHOUT AS IF THERE'S NO TOMORROW! She just gets angry over a no fucking little shit. Look at that 2 people. The son is hugging her mother, I think asking for forgiveness or just out of love. Me? No love. Just shouting. I feel damn empty just by this. I think the boy looked at me. I feel damn empty and sad at the same time. They just cannot understand me at all. Now you are being nice to me, oh. You actually thought I would change? Probably not. Because now, I, Goh Ruo Xuan offically dislike you. I really really hate you. You always can make me feel so scared. You always made me feel so scared living in this house. You are the reason why almost every night I'm crying and I hate to come home if you are in the house. I knew that there would be something for you to say for me that I hate it which are the bad remarks about me. I just want to learn about new things, change my look, put braces. Is it that hard? I want to be able to sing with confidence, have a real dream. My dream is to become an kpop idol, which is impossible. But I still want to be a singer who can play piano knows korean well. I want to learn piano. It looks freaking fine. Or even a music writer. I don't know if that is a thing but I just want something related to music. Music really makes me really happy. I really really want to learn piano.