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Why do we as humans exist?
How do we exist?
Im not talking about religion, im talking about us as people not faith or hope. Why out of everything in the universe did we evolve into what we are...
I have no clue, some think theres a single creator that made everything and we are here to push passed our "creator" some think it was all just luck and we should just be happy where alive and here. I dont "think".... i dont want to "think", i want to know. Why are we here, Is there a reason, do we or should we be doing something or understanding something where not getting..... Its hard to believe but there was once a point in human history where there was no fighting, and i always wonder.... if there was no fighting now, no religion, no politics, no economy, no fighting..... Just people being people what would our world look like, what would be have accomplished.... would be know more? or would we know less? Would it help in any way shape or form..... I used to always think that we where planted here by some alien and we are just an off spree of another life..... Or test subjects if you will, and we are being studied by who ever made us. Studied and watched over to see what we would do...... to see if we where what they wanted, what they thought was the "perfect" life form. To See how far we could go before we ourselfs ended life on this planet. But even after all that, i always come back to the same point.... no matter what you throw out there weather its a fact or an opinion.... you always will get the same end question of "who knows"...... and who does know? hell im not sure if anyone knows, we could be that lucky organism that jigsawed his way up to what we are to day. Scientists say that our eyes where once there own organism and they somehow just randomly attached to another "thing" that became our head, that could be dead wrong but will we ever know? Nope... and thats just the truth of it... no matter how hard you look, no matter how hard you try, you'll just be chasing your own tail wondering about something no one will ever find out.... and this may just be my 17 year old head going crazy or losing my mind/self control but i feel like i think about this way to often and every time i do my brain just shuts down...... Its like once i get so far into my though my brain tells me no and it snaps me out of it.. I just dont know any more... i wish someone would just find the answer already but at the same time i dont... "Mystery is humans greatest enemy" to me this means mysterys sometimes shouldnt be found. And maybe this mystery is just one of those mysterys...