Notes

Hey jess 💔 i really can't stop thinking about you and what we had, you are my everything 😔 Im sorry for giving up so easily, i just have a really bad time processing things like this 😓 i miss you, i miss us 😩 When you cleared our nick names and changed everything i knew this was for real 😫 I'm fucken destroyed at the fact that i pushed you away so much that you couldn't handle it anymore and ending it was the last option you had 😖 I feel dead without you baby! these last 2 months have been the highlight of my life and i wish we could continue making memories 😥 i beg of you to give me another chance, to give us another chance 😭😭 I need you baby. I'm so lost for words right now but i really hope you are alright and that you find someone right for you 😞 I will never forget you and i will never forget all the times we spent together 😏 I know our relationship was a roller coaster set for disaster but i wasn't ready for disaster to strike this soon 😖 I will never be able to describe the love i have for you. this feeling is honestly so indescribable that it's fucked me up. im sorry i didn't fight for you, for us 😔 Im sorry for the way i treated you and im sorry that i made you feel as if i wasn't trying or that i didn't care but baby i was but i have a different way of showing it 😪 You are truly the most amazing girl in the world and any guy would be lucky to call you his 💕 I never wanted things to end and certainly not like this 💔 i planned my future with you and i don't know what i am going to do with myself now. I pray that we can fix this and that we will come back from this stronger than ever but i guess those dreams are crushed now 😫 i know tonight that one moment i am begging for you back and then the next im throwing this all back on you but it's all because i don't want to believe it and i don't want to accept the blame because we both know this is all on me 😔 I can't stop feeling sorry for myself baby and im sorry for trying to turn this all on you 😕 We were great together i had never seen a girl smile like you did when i made you laugh 😌 i will never forget that night when we were both in the happiest moods and we had such a cute night together just down the road from tyras, or that time we spent our one month together out the beach and you gave me this hair tie 😍 or even the time i walked out the beach to meet you and gyn and we stood outside your house for like 3 hours kissing and falling for each other more and more by each kiss 😩 It's moments like these that will break my heart when i see you they will also help me push myself each day to get through life 😏 I want the best for you baby and i really hope you find it in someone else if we don't get through this 😌 I wouldn't mind just one last cuddle or just one more kiss, i will never forget your cuddles or kisses but one more would be pretty great if you ask me 😘 Oh wtf am i saying 😭😭😭 Baby i need you back and i can't move on from you! i want to wake up in the morning and see this has all just been one big nightmare and everything is alright between us and we give each other the biggest hug tomorrow morning 😔 but this is real and that's fucken sad man 😰 I know i am going to breeak down when i see you tomorrow and how can you blame me i pushed the most amazing girl in the world away after all she did was try and make me happy. all you did was show me how much you love and i fucked all that up 😩😫 IM SORRY JESS 😭😭 I will know tomorrow if we don't fix things then this is serious 😕 You can keep the necklace i gave you baby just know that i will always have the other half and if you ever want to reunite i will be waiting for you baby 😌 No No No we will fix this tomorrow baby! i know i have said this before but after tonight i am going to change like truly we had something special ad we both lost everything to be with each other and i will not let that all go to waste alright 💘 I have faith in us baby, i hope you do too! we will get past this and bounce back strong as hell 😍 I hope when you read this you will consider taking me back baby 😞 I love you so much jess from the bottom of my heart i can honestly say you are my true love. 💕