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im so sad because i really like tyler and like i thought i would get over him but its not that easy because idk tnh he did me so petty he cooked me and told me horrible things asdfghjkl hes cute and i dont want him having a girlfriend bc im gonna totally lose it like i dont wanna seem creepy for liking him but idk but i felt like we use to have something he didn't think so but he made me feel some type of way and idk i fuvcked things up and i know that me and him will never be the same lolol why do i want him so much, it kinda sucks bc i think hes only my friend bc we smoke and tylers a fucking crack head . like some days i hate him. but other days i want him like alot and i guess today is one of those days. when he dropped me there wasnt a day i didnt think about him like i guess uts creepy and i know i cook him all the time but i guess im just hiding the fact how i really feel about him all my friends think really nad of him. they tell me to drop him and that hes a druggie and hes gonnna end up doing nothing woth his life but i dont think that i think hes gonna end up stuntting evryone idk why i have alot of faith in him. i just really wish god would do me a favor and get him to have feelimgs for me i wannt it to go back how it use to be. to tyler everything we had was fake tho he said he just felt bad and that he was trying to get his dick wet loolol but donna says its bc he was just mad but for some reason i think he meant thatt because i was all over his dick tbh. but its bc i guess i really liked him. hes older and hes bad ass and he has a cae and he smokes weed and hes cute af (to me) lol people just dont understand. its just ugh i wish i could explain but i cant. its like midnight and im in my room hoping he will text me or something. i just want to get over him like i cant deal with this sadness, i really hate myself for wanting him lolol when ya attatched to a guy who doesnt wanna fw you. like since me and tyler are never gonna be how we use to be i want him to be like my best guy friend who i can gi to when im sad i want him to protect me from these ugly ass niggas and freaaaaksksksksk 9 i wamnna stop being sad over him lololololololololololololololol i feel like i should just end out friendship because like i think if i keep texting him im gonna keep getting attatched. i really hope he didnt try and look at my story and see his name bc i might kms. starting tm im gonna try my hardest to not text him bc hes a butt and i know i can do better AHGGHH this is what i mean lolol i have these break thriughs where i think i dont need him then like 4 mins later i want him again idk why im hurting myself like this i shouldnt be in pain over a guy who diesnt want me and like the thing is its not like i dont know if he wants me like i know he doesnt want me like for a fact. frraksksksks i dont like being on bad terms with people and i like talkimg to tyler every onve in a while ya know. lol freaeek i want him to want me as much as i want him like gughghgugughguhguhguhguhguhg i dont think he really likes me now that i think about it ubh so much is going om in my head and i cant deal with iti iwhs i had no feelings at all for tyler i wish i didnt get jealous he talks to kait or he likes another girl amd hes happy fuck im tired and i have school in the morning and i wanna kms ya knososososososjcsos im done typing about this boy who dosnt give any fuvks about me i giuess i feel a lil better writomg nit i, still bery sadd its w e thoooohvovo[ihv[9iahv[iuadbv[iabv[9ahdfv[iouadnbv[9ehrojadnviuafe