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saw it was onlyIf one is locked away from the evil of the world, are they truly good, or is the purity just an illusion. This is the thought that has been popping up in my head for the last three weeks. Having no contact with any human, the fact I never had I a choice.my entire world was made up of one routine every. For as long as i can remember I lived with my father. who did all the going and coming, I stayed here. The only time I saw sun light was when he opened the door ,when he was going out there or coming back through the heavy squeaking door.
my world consisted of reading books, which he brought from his trips and desperately trying to keep my sanity. I swore I was mad or on the brinks of It, my solitude was driving me crazy. But I knew my dad would never understand. the sun is the only welcoming light that brings comfort to me, it’s a symbol of hope. Hope of something more.i read books of all genres, mostly fiction though. The kind with mythical creation with mystical powers. I guess reading took me places I couldn’t go.it makes me experience situation i couldn’t be in . my dad sometime told me tales of people, some are of love, the kind of love that makes you want that for yourself but my favorite are the ones about warriors and heros.it makes me feel like I could run away and actually survive somehow.
That night i stayed up thinking of ways to get out of here without hurting my dad. I knew I was going to run away but I had no clue when or even where I was going. I fell into a dream that felt like my reality. The world wasn’t has bad as dad said. I landed on a beach, it was full of live and smiling faces. I met a boy he had perfect skin the silkiest black hair and the sweatiest sounding voice
"Katie are you okay? "the sound of angel fell my ears
discombobulated all that came out was" huh?"
"are you okay Katy? "
He said looking deeply into my eye searching for some sign's that I was okay.
"yeah,I mean no no im okay "I jump up on my feet
"look see, all good"
" well you scared me, you looked like you were out of it"
"sorry didn’t mean to scare you "
all of a sudden he started laughing "you want to sit back down""yeah sure "I looked around searching for a chair he wipes out a towel from his backpack and proceeds to sit on the sand while tapping on to towel. This wasn’t what I had in mind, a chair would have been just fine. I joined him anyway. I grumble landing hard on my butt he laughs and rapes is arm around me pulling me in to his chest. I felt weirdly save
" ah my head "
he rushed over holding my wasted as in to keep me from falling again "Kat are you okay? "
"no,no I'm not"
"Katie? Katie? "
"Katie Katie wake up Katie "are you okay, wake up" I felt hands shaking my shoulder"Katie you up yet" I mean I am now I thought to myself before saying yeah ,I saw his back as he when to shut the door behind him, as I look at the clock I
9 am but the screeching of the metal door woke me up completely. It's like he doesn’t even try to enter quietly. "KATIE YOU UP HUNNY" he said as he turns around with a smile on his face. "Well… come give your old man a hug for being alive. "he said with a laugh and his hand out asking for a hug. i got up to give him one when I saw the bag of books on the floor near the door. He has never brought that much back before."where did you get all of these books from dad "I said with a smile ripping all the way up to my ears.i know todays your birthday so I wanted to do something special ,do you like them. The word'like' wasn't even close to what I felt for books they were my reality, I came alive in books but all I manage to get out was "yeah".i didn’t what him to know how much this meant to me, I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me happy. "well I saw you reading the same book over and over, I thought you'll like it?""i do dad, I do. "calling him dad have always felt weird but he hated it when I called him by his name.
The night went by in a blur, while he was talking about his trip, I was having one. I was still coming out of what had just happened. Trying to rap my head around it, was I really outside of this room or was it all in my head.
"so what do you think Katie?"
"huh"what did you say"
"I was thinking about taking you on a trip with me""really dad when,when,whennnn?"
"when it calms down out there Hun, let's go by hears okay?"
"mhm oh okay""soon though""will im tired so can I go to bed now"without waiting for an answer I grabbed the bag and went to bed maybe I'll have the same dream tonight. Now how do this work, okay close your eyes, think about him, picture his face, his hair his lips, oh wow his lips .there so perfect he's so perfect.
"Katie can I come in?" embarrassment was probably stamped on to my face because for some reason he was already in the room before I could pull myself together. He took a seat on the bed and started to clear his throat."katie i know your"
not being in the mood for a conversation I interrupted what would have been a hour long talk about how much he cares about me far too much to put my life in danger. "if you don't mind I'm really tired can we have this conversation tomorrow "I said this more like" I'm tired so get the hell out thanks for leaving more than an actual question."no we'll have it now if you don’t mind"
"I know your mad at me now but you need to understand it's not save out there and I would not be able to carry on if anything happened to you on my watch. "he pulse for a minute waiting for me to show a sign that I understood. I repeated with a nod just so he would leave already. He kissed me on the forehead and then left closing the door behind him. I close my eyes in hope of falling asleep right away. But it did not come, my mind was trapped in a world wind of thoughts. "I can leave tonight. all i will need to do is take the keys out of the save and leave before he wakes up. But where would I go? It doesn’t matter at this point I just need to leave. I seat up straight
With my ears peel for sounds, His he still up. Should I go look, okay I will if he's up I'll act like I came outside for some water or something. I opened the door struggling to do this quietly to no avail. The door squelched against the floor making the loudest sound breaking up the silent that was ones there. I exit my room making sure to make no more sounds .my plans of leaving tonight was fuel by the sight of him lying on the couch. I knew my plan of leaving wasn’t very rational but I didn’t expect for them to be crushed so quickly. "i thought you was sleeping already its after 1"
"I got up to get some water that's all "he smiled and turn his head back to the television. With agility I drunk some water and heading back to my room. Have a good night rest I heard him call out just before I shut the door.as i laid in bed I quickly fell into a welcomed state of somnolence.in hope that I will wake up somewhere else.
The sun was now falling leaving the most beautiful orange, yellow and pink sky line in its wake. If the world was ones as beautiful as this I can't image what took place to leave it the way dad says it is now. I was still on the beach but no one was here, not knowing where to go I stayed there looking at the sun slowly raising. Everything will be alright I said aloud trying to convince myself of this. I stared at the sun for hours it seem feeling the most freedom I've felt my entire life."Katie!'i turned around to see him, Mr. perfect. Not knowing his name I said "hey you "he smiled and joined me in the sand.
"I left to go get help when you fainted again ,where is everyone? He said as he looked around the empty beach.
"I don’t know I woke up to still.
'they probably thought you were dead and went running for the hills "he said jokingly. "maybe i am"he laughed not knowing I wasn’t joking, being dead seem way better that not living."so are you sure your better now?'
'yeah am okay"
"so you're not going to pass out again right?"listen "I turn toward him "even if I do pass out again just know I am okay"
"he rayed his eyebrow "I push his shoulder playfully just trust me. i loved that he seem to care so much about me and i don’t even know his name."okay well i know what to do when it happens again"
"what's that"
"stay right next to you until you wake up "I smiled the sun was right below the horizon, blindingly shining from above the peak of the sea."are you finish starting at the sky "he waved his hand in front of my face "sorry i spaced out " he laughs while grabbing me "let's go get some ice cream "the beach was all of a sudden crowded again. We weave our way through the little crowd that had started to form around two guys having a dance battle, I felt overwhelm but a good overwhelm, the kind you get from doing new things which was everything, my heart rate hasn’t slowed down since I've arrived here. Ice cream I wonder what it tasked like, I've saw pictures and read book where people ordered ice-cream but I haven't had the pleasure of trying it."MS pam ice cream "he shouted with his hand up.it was a pink and green glow in the dark shack .i have no idea how i didn’t see it a mile away. "Katie this is MS Pamela, she owns the shop."
"who would guess? "laughing I reach my hand out but she pulled me in for a hug."
"hey Katie what will you be having today?'
"double vanilla with Oreo "I only said that because I remember reading it somewhere, thought she would have it but I guess not because she rested a eyebrow "I'll have what he's having"
"okay so just double the usual MS pam ""okay sunny shake it is""so how did you two meet?"
"I have saw her laying around on the beach before but we officially actually met today, it seem like something was wrong when I saw her two days ago so I helped her out. Ever since we've been the best of friends."i smiled.
Ever since I've landing here I would actually consider him as a best friend, I actually though he somehow were my best friend but I somehow have forgotten who he was."well here you go a double sunny shake ice-cream"
That’s a weird name for ice-cream. I assume it would be flavors like the ones i read about.as he handed me it, I smiled to myself feeling lost in a new world, a world of life like dreams, with life like people .all I knew was my father and the pages i turned , now I actually have people to talk to and it did not matter if it was real or not .
"I never got your name? "I said without thinking much because I really just wanted to know this guy that I was now so attached to.
"Alec"he said with a smile
That smile, there were something different from the ones he did before. Was I right to assume that we were friend, is he laughing at the fact that I did not know his name.
"That is a nice name" I said to break the silence that I have created
"yeah I guess"
My father's name was Alex, my mother Cara thought she was being clever by taking off the x and adding the c from her first name.
"at least she was being creating and wasn't just a bad speller"
He laughed at my sad ,phatic joke.'yeah i guess so"
We finished the ice-cream in silence, mainly because it was almost completely liquid now. We slurped it down as quickly as possible and even got seconds which was in our belly as soon as it arrived.'slow down or you'll get brain freeze Huns" MS pam said .I laughed knowing that I wouldn’t mind getting brain freeze if not only for the experience .
"you ready to go""yeah I'm done "I said not sure where exactly we were heading .i said bye to MS pam and began following alec.it sure is nice to put a name to his glorious face. He grabs my hand as we walked along the pear.
I started wondering how he knew my name. He did know it instantly so I had assumed that we were friends already
"so how did you know my name?'
" he laughs, while I'm kind of embarrassed. He looks away "I have been watching you for a few weeks"
Not knowing wat to say, all that came out was "okay "it was creepy that he was watching me for weeks but it was weird because I haven't been here that long. i only remember being her for two days. Not know where here was anyway.

ALEC -The day I saw her was like waking for the first time . She was laying in the sand on Brighton woods beach, hair laid recklessly as if she had no care of the amount of sand that would find home between each strand of hair. Her eyes close so peacefully, unaware of the kacus around her. There was a volleyball match no more than 10 feet away from her, kids playing with water guns some building sand castle but none of this seem to face her. After seeing her that day I would go there every day in hope that she would open her eyes but she never did. I walk over to where she laid two weeks later after working up the confidence to try waking her without seeming like a creep to no avail. I sat near her "the weather is quite beautiful today huh? really Alec the weather is quite beautiful today I thought "who even specks like that I hit myself on the forehead maybe I'll knock the speech pattern of a normal 17 year old person back in there. I relaxed when I looked over to see she did not even notice I was there.is she ignoring me? No maybe she is asleep. I puked her shoulder once or twice with my index finger but I got no reaction from her. I did get a few off putting looks from a couple of people that couldn’t mind their own business, like these two kid that look directly into my eyes and said clear as day "what a fucking weirdo". what is this world coming to. I understand I was probably looking mad wired sitting near a stranger and puking her but the parent of these kids should have said something about their five year old kid saying that word. Also who's to say I don’t know this girl.
The next day I came early and waited for her to arrive. The beach flooded with people but I couldn’t find her. I waited for hours but she never showed, I Left the beach at nine dismal that I didn’t see her today but mostly tired. I did not get must sleep last night, I was so consume with the thought of seeing her today that I forgot I needed sleep to function. I headed straight to bed not bothering to answer my mother "Alec where have you been all day?' that was the last thing I remember before waking up the next day and rushing to the showing because it was after four, she is probably already there, Tanning out whatever girls do on a beach.as I had expected there she was eye shut not having a care in the world of what was happening around her. I stood in front of her looking down at the most perfect girl I've ever seen. I examined her pail body, amazingly bewilder at how she isn't frighteningly baked from the sun beam she loves to lay under so much. There was a necklace that she was wearing with her name on it, that read Katy. Her name was so simply perfect, she looks like a Katy I thought. I continue with the awkward act of visiting her for months it seem.it became routine I woke ate breakfast and waiting until I knew she would be there praying that she would give me the time of that.
it was the day of my birthday June 3th my mother had invited the few people I knew but I wouldn’t necessarily call them friends. We were once the best of friends though but that was in the past. Even though we hung out ones in a while, it slowly felt force like two positive magnets trying to connect but can never stay connected.
Eventually it got to the point where we made plans which fell apart because we would all cancel for random reasons. Uncomfortable and anxious I brought myself to converse with a few of them. cester talked about soccer for what seem like hours and yet he still talking.
"so we should like get together this weekend, Europe vs Britain"
"yeah yeah sounds good "I did not bother to tell him to text me to remind me or anything of that nature. I knew it was pointless, he would text me something alone the line of
"yo alec the game was canceled, you would not believe it but the field was reportedly on fire it was crazy man "I circled the room once or twice to be polite then ran straight for the door as soon as everyone was heading to the kitchen for their box of food etc. I proceeded out the door to the very hot sand where i saw her sitting up and my heart stop.my foot kept moving without any signals from my brains knowledge. I stood in front of her as I always did. Katy?

Where is this place, did i run away that night I am I finally free to live. This view in front of me could not possible be fake, he couldn’t, The feeling of the sand beneath my feet? It felt like home I feel like I'm finally home. "so where are you staying?"
I looked down to she was not listening to me so I taped her on the nose "huh" she smile but still didn’t answer the question so I asked her again? "where are you staying, you are on vacation right? I live right up there on that mountain."oh really that's a nice house, how long have you live there""all my live really, I love here""I'm sure you do""he laugh yeah it's like I'm forever on vacation""exactly"
"sooooo?"I laughed "I guess you don’t want me to know where you live? Not wanting to seem like more of a creep I said never mind its find.
"no it's not like that, I just can't remember the street name" "what color are your eyes""um i actually don’t know "he laughs "what how?"
"I've never saw them before"
"don’t you have a mirror "
"no my dad doesn’t think I need one "
"well you don’t your beautiful without trying"
I smile and decided to lay on his legs, I wanted to be closer to him. He looks down at me, looking deeply into my eye and says
"I think there red"
Red just like the color of the sky right.it looked like the sky was on fire, inflamed with colors of red orange and yellow. She's so beautiful far more beautiful that this or any other sunrise I have or will ever see.
she shrugs, it's crazy that she don’t seem to think this. I mean it's completely crazy that she even said hi to me but I'm happy she did.
I woke up to a vague image of a shadow standing over me not moving but just standing there ,staring. I blinded trying to get a clear sight, who is this where am I. The figure doesn’t appear to be Alec. I blinked repeatedly, not too much concern with how crazy I might looked to this person.my vision had start to clear, it was him.my dad, staring at me with a blank look on his face. He smiles finally Katy your up. I just got back come give me a hug sweetie. I blank headedly got up and give him a hug.

'so you haven't been reading as much kay should I be worried?""why would you ever be worried about me"he smiles and said "i guess you're having one of those girlie mood swings today "as he walk out my bed room into the living room. He couldn’t have left sooner. I attempted to gather my thoughts. Not sure what is real from what isn't. I decided to stop torturing my brain, I'll leave it allow for now. I looked over at the pale of books stacked on my cabinet not quite felling the urge to pick a signal one up. I signed "my world started feeling smaller and smaller. I lazily to slow steps outside heading straight to the bathroom. I washed my face and brush my teeth then got in the shower making sure I take longer than usual. It's not like I had plans any way. I hopped out the shower an hour later dried my legs ,arm ,etc. i put my robe on and heading back to my room. Feeling awfully dead I didn’t care at all what I wear. I just dragged on my nightgown and heading back outside for some breakfast which was more like brunch since its already one o'clock. 




saw it was onlyIf one is locked away from the evil of the world, are they truly good, or is the purity just an illusion. This is the thought that has been popping up in my head for the last three weeks. Having no contact with any human, the fact I never had I a choice.my entire world was made up of one routine every. For as long as i can remember I lived with my father. who did all the going and coming, I stayed here. The only time I saw sun light was when he opened the door ,when he was going out there or coming back through the heavy squeaking door.
my world consisted of reading books, which he brought from his trips and desperately trying to keep my sanity. I swore I was mad or on the brinks of It, my solitude was driving me crazy. But I knew my dad would never understand. the sun is the only welcoming light that brings comfort to me, it’s a symbol of hope. Hope of something more.i read books of all genres, mostly fiction though. The kind with mythical creation with mystical powers. I guess reading took me places I couldn’t go.it makes me experience situation i couldn’t be in . my dad sometime told me tales of people, some are of love, the kind of love that makes you want that for yourself but my favorite are the ones about warriors and heros.it makes me feel like I could run away and actually survive somehow.
That night i stayed up thinking of ways to get out of here without hurting my dad. I knew I was going to run away but I had no clue when or even where I was going. I fell into a dream that felt like my reality. The world wasn’t has bad as dad said. I landed on a beach, it was full of live and smiling faces. I met a boy he had perfect skin the silkiest black hair and the sweatiest sounding voice
"Katie are you okay? "the sound of angel fell my ears
discombobulated all that came out was" huh?"
"are you okay Katy? "
He said looking deeply into my eye searching for some sign's that I was okay.
"yeah,I mean no no im okay "I jump up on my feet
"look see, all good"
" well you scared me, you looked like you were out of it"
"sorry didn’t mean to scare you "
all of a sudden he started laughing "you want to sit back down""yeah sure "I looked around searching for a chair he wipes out a towel from his backpack and proceeds to sit on the sand while tapping on to towel. This wasn’t what I had in mind, a chair would have been just fine. I joined him anyway. I grumble landing hard on my butt he laughs and rapes is arm around me pulling me in to his chest. I felt weirdly save
" ah my head "
he rushed over holding my wasted as in to keep me from falling again "Kat are you okay? "
"no,no I'm not"
"Katie? Katie? "
"Katie Katie wake up Katie "are you okay, wake up" I felt hands shaking my shoulder"Katie you up yet" I mean I am now I thought to myself before saying yeah ,I saw his back as he when to shut the door behind him, as I look at the clock I
9 am but the screeching of the metal door woke me up completely. It's like he doesn’t even try to enter quietly. "KATIE YOU UP HUNNY" he said as he turns around with a smile on his face. "Well… come give your old man a hug for being alive. "he said with a laugh and his hand out asking for a hug. i got up to give him one when I saw the bag of books on the floor near the door. He has never brought that much back before."where did you get all of these books from dad "I said with a smile ripping all the way up to my ears.i know todays your birthday so I wanted to do something special ,do you like them. The word'like' wasn't even close to what I felt for books they were my reality, I came alive in books but all I manage to get out was "yeah".i didn’t what him to know how much this meant to me, I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me happy. "well I saw you reading the same book over and over, I thought you'll like it?""i do dad, I do. "calling him dad have always felt weird but he hated it when I called him by his name.
The night went by in a blur, while he was talking about his trip, I was having one. I was still coming out of what had just happened. Trying to rap my head around it, was I really outside of this room or was it all in my head.
"so what do you think Katie?"
"huh"what did you say"
"I was thinking about taking you on a trip with me""really dad when,when,whennnn?"
"when it calms down out there Hun, let's go by hears okay?"
"mhm oh okay""soon though""will im tired so can I go to bed now"without waiting for an answer I grabbed the bag and went to bed maybe I'll have the same dream tonight. Now how do this work, okay close your eyes, think about him, picture his face, his hair his lips, oh wow his lips .there so perfect he's so perfect.
"Katie can I come in?" embarrassment was probably stamped on to my face because for some reason he was already in the room before I could pull myself together. He took a seat on the bed and started to clear his throat."katie i know your"
not being in the mood for a conversation I interrupted what would have been a hour long talk about how much he cares about me far too much to put my life in danger. "if you don't mind I'm really tired can we have this conversation tomorrow "I said this more like" I'm tired so get the hell out thanks for leaving more than an actual question."no we'll have it now if you don’t mind"
"I know your mad at me now but you need to understand it's not save out there and I would not be able to carry on if anything happened to you on my watch. "he pulse for a minute waiting for me to show a sign that I understood. I repeated with a nod just so he would leave already. He kissed me on the forehead and then left closing the door behind him. I close my eyes in hope of falling asleep right away. But it did not come, my mind was trapped in a world wind of thoughts. "I can leave tonight. all i will need to do is take the keys out of the save and leave before he wakes up. But where would I go? It doesn’t matter at this point I just need to leave. I seat up straight
With my ears peel for sounds, His he still up. Should I go look, okay I will if he's up I'll act like I came outside for some water or something. I opened the door struggling to do this quietly to no avail. The door squelched against the floor making the loudest sound breaking up the silent that was ones there. I exit my room making sure to make no more sounds .my plans of leaving tonight was fuel by the sight of him lying on the couch. I knew my plan of leaving wasn’t very rational but I didn’t expect for them to be crushed so quickly. "i thought you was sleeping already its after 1"
"I got up to get some water that's all "he smiled and turn his head back to the television. With agility I drunk some water and heading back to my room. Have a good night rest I heard him call out just before I shut the door.as i laid in bed I quickly fell into a welcomed state of somnolence.in hope that I will wake up somewhere else.
The sun was now falling leaving the most beautiful orange, yellow and pink sky line in its wake. If the world was ones as beautiful as this I can't image what took place to leave it the way dad says it is now. I was still on the beach but no one was here, not knowing where to go I stayed there looking at the sun slowly raising. Everything will be alright I said aloud trying to convince myself of this. I stared at the sun for hours it seem feeling the most freedom I've felt my entire life."Katie!'i turned around to see him, Mr. perfect. Not knowing his name I said "hey you "he smiled and joined me in the sand.
"I left to go get help when you fainted again ,where is everyone? He said as he looked around the empty beach.
"I don’t know I woke up to still.
'they probably thought you were dead and went running for the hills "he said jokingly. "maybe i am"he laughed not knowing I wasn’t joking, being dead seem way better that not living."so are you sure your better now?'
'yeah am okay"
"so you're not going to pass out again right?"listen "I turn toward him "even if I do pass out again just know I am okay"
"he rayed his eyebrow "I push his shoulder playfully just trust me. i loved that he seem to care so much about me and i don’t even know his name."okay well i know what to do when it happens again"
"what's that"
"stay right next to you until you wake up "I smiled the sun was right below the horizon, blindingly shining from above the peak of the sea."are you finish starting at the sky "he waved his hand in front of my face "sorry i spaced out " he laughs while grabbing me "let's go get some ice cream "the beach was all of a sudden crowded again. We weave our way through the little crowd that had started to form around two guys having a dance battle, I felt overwhelm but a good overwhelm, the kind you get from doing new things which was everything, my heart rate hasn’t slowed down since I've arrived here. Ice cream I wonder what it tasked like, I've saw pictures and read book where people ordered ice-cream but I haven't had the pleasure of trying it."MS pam ice cream "he shouted with his hand up.it was a pink and green glow in the dark shack .i have no idea how i didn’t see it a mile away. "Katie this is MS Pamela, she owns the shop."
"who would guess? "laughing I reach my hand out but she pulled me in for a hug."
"hey Katie what will you be having today?'
"double vanilla with Oreo "I only said that because I remember reading it somewhere, thought she would have it but I guess not because she rested a eyebrow "I'll have what he's having"
"okay so just double the usual MS pam ""okay sunny shake it is""so how did you two meet?"
"I have saw her laying around on the beach before but we officially actually met today, it seem like something was wrong when I saw her two days ago so I helped her out. Ever since we've been the best of friends."i smiled.
Ever since I've landing here I would actually consider him as a best friend, I actually though he somehow were my best friend but I somehow have forgotten who he was."well here you go a double sunny shake ice-cream"
That’s a weird name for ice-cream. I assume it would be flavors like the ones i read about.as he handed me it, I smiled to myself feeling lost in a new world, a world of life like dreams, with life like people .all I knew was my father and the pages i turned , now I actually have people to talk to and it did not matter if it was real or not .
"I never got your name? "I said without thinking much because I really just wanted to know this guy that I was now so attached to.
"Alec"he said with a smile
That smile, there were something different from the ones he did before. Was I right to assume that we were friend, is he laughing at the fact that I did not know his name.
"That is a nice name" I said to break the silence that I have created
"yeah I guess"
My father's name was Alex, my mother Cara thought she was being clever by taking off the x and adding the c from her first name.
"at least she was being creating and wasn't just a bad speller"
He laughed at my sad ,phatic joke.'yeah i guess so"
We finished the ice-cream in silence, mainly because it was almost completely liquid now. We slurped it down as quickly as possible and even got seconds which was in our belly as soon as it arrived.'slow down or you'll get brain freeze Huns" MS pam said .I laughed knowing that I wouldn’t mind getting brain freeze if not only for the experience .
"you ready to go""yeah I'm done "I said not sure where exactly we were heading .i said bye to MS pam and began following alec.it sure is nice to put a name to his glorious face. He grabs my hand as we walked along the pear.
I started wondering how he knew my name. He did know it instantly so I had assumed that we were friends already
"so how did you know my name?'
" he laughs, while I'm kind of embarrassed. He looks away "I have been watching you for a few weeks"
Not knowing wat to say, all that came out was "okay "it was creepy that he was watching me for weeks but it was weird because I haven't been here that long. i only remember being her for two days. Not know where here was anyway.

ALEC -The day I saw her was like waking for the first time . She was laying in the sand on Brighton woods beach, hair laid recklessly as if she had no care of the amount of sand that would find home between each strand of hair. Her eyes close so peacefully, unaware of the kacus around her. There was a volleyball match no more than 10 feet away from her, kids playing with water guns some building sand castle but none of this seem to face her. After seeing her that day I would go there every day in hope that she would open her eyes but she never did. I walk over to where she laid two weeks later after working up the confidence to try waking her without seeming like a creep to no avail. I sat near her "the weather is quite beautiful today huh? really Alec the weather is quite beautiful today I thought "who even specks like that I hit myself on the forehead maybe I'll knock the speech pattern of a normal 17 year old person back in there. I relaxed when I looked over to see she did not even notice I was there.is she ignoring me? No maybe she is asleep. I puked her shoulder once or twice with my index finger but I got no reaction from her. I did get a few off putting looks from a couple of people that couldn’t mind their own business, like these two kid that look directly into my eyes and said clear as day "what a fucking weirdo". what is this world coming to. I understand I was probably looking mad wired sitting near a stranger and puking her but the parent of these kids should have said something about their five year old kid saying that word. Also who's to say I don’t know this girl.
The next day I came early and waited for her to arrive. The beach flooded with people but I couldn’t find her. I waited for hours but she never showed, I Left the beach at nine dismal that I didn’t see her today but mostly tired. I did not get must sleep last night, I was so consume with the thought of seeing her today that I forgot I needed sleep to function. I headed straight to bed not bothering to answer my mother "Alec where have you been all day?' that was the last thing I remember before waking up the next day and rushing to the showing because it was after four, she is probably already there, Tanning out whatever girls do on a beach.as I had expected there she was eye shut not having a care in the world of what was happening around her. I stood in front of her looking down at the most perfect girl I've ever seen. I examined her pail body, amazingly bewilder at how she isn't frighteningly baked from the sun beam she loves to lay under so much. There was a necklace that she was wearing with her name on it, that read Katy. Her name was so simply perfect, she looks like a Katy I thought. I continue with the awkward act of visiting her for months it seem.it became routine I woke ate breakfast and waiting until I knew she would be there praying that she would give me the time of that.
it was the day of my birthday June 3th my mother had invited the few people I knew but I wouldn’t necessarily call them friends. We were once the best of friends though but that was in the past. Even though we hung out ones in a while, it slowly felt force like two positive magnets trying to connect but can never stay connected.
Eventually it got to the point where we made plans which fell apart because we would all cancel for random reasons. Uncomfortable and anxious I brought myself to converse with a few of them. cester talked about soccer for what seem like hours and yet he still talking.
"so we should like get together this weekend, Europe vs Britain"
"yeah yeah sounds good "I did not bother to tell him to text me to remind me or anything of that nature. I knew it was pointless, he would text me something alone the line of
"yo alec the game was canceled, you would not believe it but the field was reportedly on fire it was crazy man "I circled the room once or twice to be polite then ran straight for the door as soon as everyone was heading to the kitchen for their box of food etc. I proceeded out the door to the very hot sand where i saw her sitting up and my heart stop.my foot kept moving without any signals from my brains knowledge. I stood in front of her as I always did. Katy?

Where is this place, did i run away that night I am I finally free to live. This view in front of me could not possible be fake, he couldn’t, The feeling of the sand beneath my feet? It felt like home I feel like I'm finally home. "so where are you staying?"
I looked down to she was not listening to me so I taped her on the nose "huh" she smile but still didn’t answer the question so I asked her again? "where are you staying, you are on vacation right? I live right up there on that mountain."oh really that's a nice house, how long have you live there""all my live really, I love here""I'm sure you do""he laugh yeah it's like I'm forever on vacation""exactly"
"sooooo?"I laughed "I guess you don’t want me to know where you live? Not wanting to seem like more of a creep I said never mind its find.
"no it's not like that, I just can't remember the street name" "what color are your eyes""um i actually don’t know "he laughs "what how?"
"I've never saw them before"
"don’t you have a mirror "
"no my dad doesn’t think I need one "
"well you don’t your beautiful without trying"
I smile and decided to lay on his legs, I wanted to be closer to him. He looks down at me, looking deeply into my eye and says
"I think there red"
Red just like the color of the sky right.it looked like the sky was on fire, inflamed with colors of red orange and yellow. She's so beautiful far more beautiful that this or any other sunrise I have or will ever see.
she shrugs, it's crazy that she don’t seem to think this. I mean it's completely crazy that she even said hi to me but I'm happy she did.
I woke up to a vague image of a shadow standing over me not moving but just standing there ,staring. I blinded trying to get a clear sight, who is this where am I. The figure doesn’t appear to be Alec. I blinked repeatedly, not too much concern with how crazy I might looked to this person.my vision had start to clear, it was him.my dad, staring at me with a blank look on his face. He smiles finally Katy your up. I just got back come give me a hug sweetie. I blank headedly got up and give him a hug.

'so you haven't been reading as much kay should I be worried?""why would you ever be worried about me"he smiles and said "i guess you're having one of those girlie mood swings today "as he walk out my bed room into the living room. He couldn’t have left sooner. I attempted to gather my thoughts. Not sure what is real from what isn't. I decided to stop torturing my brain, I'll leave it allow for now. I looked over at the pale of books stacked on my cabinet not quite felling the urge to pick a signal one up. I signed "my world started feeling smaller and smaller. I lazily to slow steps outside heading straight to the bathroom. I washed my face and brush my teeth then got in the shower making sure I take longer than usual. It's not like I had plans any way. I hopped out the shower an hour later dried my legs ,arm ,etc. i put my robe on and heading back to my room. Feeling awfully dead I didn’t care at all what I wear. I just dragged on my nightgown and heading back outside for some breakfast which was more like brunch since its already one o'clock. 











saw it was onlyIf one is locked away from the evil of the world, are they truly good, or is the purity just an illusion. This is the thought that has been popping up in my head for the last three weeks. Having no contact with any human, the fact I never had I a choice.my entire world was made up of one routine every. For as long as i can remember I lived with my father. who did all the going and coming, I stayed here. The only time I saw sun light was when he opened the door ,when he was going out there or coming back through the heavy squeaking door.
my world consisted of reading books, which he brought from his trips and desperately trying to keep my sanity. I swore I was mad or on the brinks of It, my solitude was driving me crazy. But I knew my dad would never understand. the sun is the only welcoming light that brings comfort to me, it’s a symbol of hope. Hope of something more.i read books of all genres, mostly fiction though. The kind with mythical creation with mystical powers. I guess reading took me places I couldn’t go.it makes me experience situation i couldn’t be in . my dad sometime told me tales of people, some are of love, the kind of love that makes you want that for yourself but my favorite are the ones about warriors and heros.it makes me feel like I could run away and actually survive somehow.
That night i stayed up thinking of ways to get out of here without hurting my dad. I knew I was going to run away but I had no clue when or even where I was going. I fell into a dream that felt like my reality. The world wasn’t has bad as dad said. I landed on a beach, it was full of live and smiling faces. I met a boy he had perfect skin the silkiest black hair and the sweatiest sounding voice
"Katie are you okay? "the sound of angel fell my ears
discombobulated all that came out was" huh?"
"are you okay Katy? "
He said looking deeply into my eye searching for some sign's that I was okay.
"yeah,I mean no no im okay "I jump up on my feet
"look see, all good"
" well you scared me, you looked like you were out of it"
"sorry didn’t mean to scare you "
all of a sudden he started laughing "you want to sit back down""yeah sure "I looked around searching for a chair he wipes out a towel from his backpack and proceeds to sit on the sand while tapping on to towel. This wasn’t what I had in mind, a chair would have been just fine. I joined him anyway. I grumble landing hard on my butt he laughs and rapes is arm around me pulling me in to his chest. I felt weirdly save
" ah my head "
he rushed over holding my wasted as in to keep me from falling again "Kat are you okay? "
"no,no I'm not"
"Katie? Katie? "
"Katie Katie wake up Katie "are you okay, wake up" I felt hands shaking my shoulder"Katie you up yet" I mean I am now I thought to myself before saying yeah ,I saw his back as he when to shut the door behind him, as I look at the clock I
9 am but the screeching of the metal door woke me up completely. It's like he doesn’t even try to enter quietly. "KATIE YOU UP HUNNY" he said as he turns around with a smile on his face. "Well… come give your old man a hug for being alive. "he said with a laugh and his hand out asking for a hug. i got up to give him one when I saw the bag of books on the floor near the door. He has never brought that much back before."where did you get all of these books from dad "I said with a smile ripping all the way up to my ears.i know todays your birthday so I wanted to do something special ,do you like them. The word'like' wasn't even close to what I felt for books they were my reality, I came alive in books but all I manage to get out was "yeah".i didn’t what him to know how much this meant to me, I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction of seeing me happy. "well I saw you reading the same book over and over, I thought you'll like it?""i do dad, I do. "calling him dad have always felt weird but he hated it when I called him by his name.
The night went by in a blur, while he was talking about his trip, I was having one. I was still coming out of what had just happened. Trying to rap my head around it, was I really outside of this room or was it all in my head.
"so what do you think Katie?"
"huh"what did you say"
"I was thinking about taking you on a trip with me""really dad when,when,whennnn?"
"when it calms down out there Hun, let's go by hears okay?"
"mhm oh okay""soon though""will im tired so can I go to bed now"without waiting for an answer I grabbed the bag and went to bed maybe I'll have the same dream tonight. Now how do this work, okay close your eyes, think about him, picture his face, his hair his lips, oh wow his lips .there so perfect he's so perfect.
"Katie can I come in?" embarrassment was probably stamped on to my face because for some reason he was already in the room before I could pull myself together. He took a seat on the bed and started to clear his throat."katie i know your"
not being in the mood for a conversation I interrupted what would have been a hour long talk about how much he cares about me far too much to put my life in danger. "if you don't mind I'm really tired can we have this conversation tomorrow "I said this more like" I'm tired so get the hell out thanks for leaving more than an actual question."no we'll have it now if you don’t mind"
"I know your mad at me now but you need to understand it's not save out there and I would not be able to carry on if anything happened to you on my watch. "he pulse for a minute waiting for me to show a sign that I understood. I repeated with a nod just so he would leave already. He kissed me on the forehead and then left closing the door behind him. I close my eyes in hope of falling asleep right away. But it did not come, my mind was trapped in a world wind of thoughts. "I can leave tonight. all i will need to do is take the keys out of the save and leave before he wakes up. But where would I go? It doesn’t matter at this point I just need to leave. I seat up straight
With my ears peel for sounds, His he still up. Should I go look, okay I will if he's up I'll act like I came outside for some water or something. I opened the door struggling to do this quietly to no avail. The door squelched against the floor making the loudest sound breaking up the silent that was ones there. I exit my room making sure to make no more sounds .my plans of leaving tonight was fuel by the sight of him lying on the couch. I knew my plan of leaving wasn’t very rational but I didn’t expect for them to be crushed so quickly. "i thought you was sleeping already its after 1"
"I got up to get some water that's all "he smiled and turn his head back to the television. With agility I drunk some water and heading back to my room. Have a good night rest I heard him call out just before I shut the door.as i laid in bed I quickly fell into a welcomed state of somnolence.in hope that I will wake up somewhere else.
The sun was now falling leaving the most beautiful orange, yellow and pink sky line in its wake. If the world was ones as beautiful as this I can't image what took place to leave it the way dad says it is now. I was still on the beach but no one was here, not knowing where to go I stayed there looking at the sun slowly raising. Everything will be alright I said aloud trying to convince myself of this. I stared at the sun for hours it seem feeling the most freedom I've felt my entire life."Katie!'i turned around to see him, Mr. perfect. Not knowing his name I said "hey you "he smiled and joined me in the sand.
"I left to go get help when you fainted again ,where is everyone? He said as he looked around the empty beach.
"I don’t know I woke up to still.
'they probably thought you were dead and went running for the hills "he said jokingly. "maybe i am"he laughed not knowing I wasn’t joking, being dead seem way better that not living."so are you sure your better now?'
'yeah am okay"
"so you're not going to pass out again right?"listen "I turn toward him "even if I do pass out again just know I am okay"
"he rayed his eyebrow "I push his shoulder playfully just trust me. i loved that he seem to care so much about me and i don’t even know his name."okay well i know what to do when it happens again"
"what's that"
"stay right next to you until you wake up "I smiled the sun was right below the horizon, blindingly shining from above the peak of the sea."are you finish starting at the sky "he waved his hand in front of my face "sorry i spaced out " he laughs while grabbing me "let's go get some ice cream "the beach was all of a sudden crowded again. We weave our way through the little crowd that had started to form around two guys having a dance battle, I felt overwhelm but a good overwhelm, the kind you get from doing new things which was everything, my heart rate hasn’t slowed down since I've arrived here. Ice cream I wonder what it tasked like, I've saw pictures and read book where people ordered ice-cream but I haven't had the pleasure of trying it."MS pam ice cream "he shouted with his hand up.it was a pink and green glow in the dark shack .i have no idea how i didn’t see it a mile away. "Katie this is MS Pamela, she owns the shop."
"who would guess? "laughing I reach my hand out but she pulled me in for a hug."
"hey Katie what will you be having today?'
"double vanilla with Oreo "I only said that because I remember reading it somewhere, thought she would have it but I guess not because she rested a eyebrow "I'll have what he's having"
"okay so just double the usual MS pam ""okay sunny shake it is""so how did you two meet?"
"I have saw her laying around on the beach before but we officially actually met today, it seem like something was wrong when I saw her two days ago so I helped her out. Ever since we've been the best of friends."i smiled.
Ever since I've landing here I would actually consider him as a best friend, I actually though he somehow were my best friend but I somehow have forgotten who he was."well here you go a double sunny shake ice-cream"
That’s a weird name for ice-cream. I assume it would be flavors like the ones i read about.as he handed me it, I smiled to myself feeling lost in a new world, a world of life like dreams, with life like people .all I knew was my father and the pages i turned , now I actually have people to talk to and it did not matter if it was real or not .
"I never got your name? "I said without thinking much because I really just wanted to know this guy that I was now so attached to.
"Alec"he said with a smile
That smile, there were something different from the ones he did before. Was I right to assume that we were friend, is he laughing at the fact that I did not know his name.
"That is a nice name" I said to break the silence that I have created
"yeah I guess"
My father's name was Alex, my mother Cara thought she was being clever by taking off the x and adding the c from her first name.
"at least she was being creating and wasn't just a bad speller"
He laughed at my sad ,phatic joke.'yeah i guess so"
We finished the ice-cream in silence, mainly because it was almost completely liquid now. We slurped it down as quickly as possible and even got seconds which was in our belly as soon as it arrived.'slow down or you'll get brain freeze Huns" MS pam said .I laughed knowing that I wouldn’t mind getting brain freeze if not only for the experience .
"you ready to go""yeah I'm done "I said not sure where exactly we were heading .i said bye to MS pam and began following alec.it sure is nice to put a name to his glorious face. He grabs my hand as we walked along the pear.
I started wondering how he knew my name. He did know it instantly so I had assumed that we were friends already
"so how did you know my name?'
" he laughs, while I'm kind of embarrassed. He looks away "I have been watching you for a few weeks"
Not knowing wat to say, all that came out was "okay "it was creepy that he was watching me for weeks but it was weird because I haven't been here that long. i only remember being her for two days. Not know where here was anyway.

ALEC -The day I saw her was like waking for the first time . She was laying in the sand on Brighton woods beach, hair laid recklessly as if she had no care of the amount of sand that would find home between each strand of hair. Her eyes close so peacefully, unaware of the kacus around her. There was a volleyball match no more than 10 feet away from her, kids playing with water guns some building sand castle but none of this seem to face her. After seeing her that day I would go there every day in hope that she would open her eyes but she never did. I walk over to where she laid two weeks later after working up the confidence to try waking her without seeming like a creep to no avail. I sat near her "the weather is quite beautiful today huh? really Alec the weather is quite beautiful today I thought "who even specks like that I hit myself on the forehead maybe I'll knock the speech pattern of a normal 17 year old person back in there. I relaxed when I looked over to see she did not even notice I was there.is she ignoring me? No maybe she is asleep. I puked her shoulder once or twice with my index finger but I got no reaction from her. I did get a few off putting looks from a couple of people that couldn’t mind their own business, like these two kid that look directly into my eyes and said clear as day "what a fucking weirdo". what is this world coming to. I understand I was probably looking mad wired sitting near a stranger and puking her but the parent of these kids should have said something about their five year old kid saying that word. Also who's to say I don’t know this girl.
The next day I came early and waited for her to arrive. The beach flooded with people but I couldn’t find her. I waited for hours but she never showed, I Left the beach at nine dismal that I didn’t see her today but mostly tired. I did not get must sleep last night, I was so consume with the thought of seeing her today that I forgot I needed sleep to function. I headed straight to bed not bothering to answer my mother "Alec where have you been all day?' that was the last thing I remember before waking up the next day and rushing to the showing because it was after four, she is probably already there, Tanning out whatever girls do on a beach.as I had expected there she was eye shut not having a care in the world of what was happening around her. I stood in front of her looking down at the most perfect girl I've ever seen. I examined her pail body, amazingly bewilder at how she isn't frighteningly baked from the sun beam she loves to lay under so much. There was a necklace that she was wearing with her name on it, that read Katy. Her name was so simply perfect, she looks like a Katy I thought. I continue with the awkward act of visiting her for months it seem.it became routine I woke ate breakfast and waiting until I knew she would be there praying that she would give me the time of that.
it was the day of my birthday June 3th my mother had invited the few people I knew but I wouldn’t necessarily call them friends. We were once the best of friends though but that was in the past. Even though we hung out ones in a while, it slowly felt force like two positive magnets trying to connect but can never stay connected.
Eventually it got to the point where we made plans which fell apart because we would all cancel for random reasons. Uncomfortable and anxious I brought myself to converse with a few of them. cester talked about soccer for what seem like hours and yet he still talking.
"so we should like get together this weekend, Europe vs Britain"
"yeah yeah sounds good "I did not bother to tell him to text me to remind me or anything of that nature. I knew it was pointless, he would text me something alone the line of
"yo alec the game was canceled, you would not believe it but the field was reportedly on fire it was crazy man "I circled the room once or twice to be polite then ran straight for the door as soon as everyone was heading to the kitchen for their box of food etc. I proceeded out the door to the very hot sand where i saw her sitting up and my heart stop.my foot kept moving without any signals from my brains knowledge. I stood in front of her as I always did. Katy?

Where is this place, did i run away that night I am I finally free to live. This view in front of me could not possible be fake, he couldn’t, The feeling of the sand beneath my feet? It felt like home I feel like I'm finally home. "so where are you staying?"
I looked down to she was not listening to me so I taped her on the nose "huh" she smile but still didn’t answer the question so I asked her again? "where are you staying, you are on vacation right? I live right up there on that mountain."oh really that's a nice house, how long have you live there""all my live really, I love here""I'm sure you do""he laugh yeah it's like I'm forever on vacation""exactly"
"sooooo?"I laughed "I guess you don’t want me to know where you live? Not wanting to seem like more of a creep I said never mind its find.
"no it's not like that, I just can't remember the street name" "what color are your eyes""um i actually don’t know "he laughs "what how?"
"I've never saw them before"
"don’t you have a mirror "
"no my dad doesn’t think I need one "
"well you don’t your beautiful without trying"
I smile and decided to lay on his legs, I wanted to be closer to him. He looks down at me, looking deeply into my eye and says
"I think there red"
Red just like the color of the sky right.it looked like the sky was on fire, inflamed with colors of red orange and yellow. She's so beautiful far more beautiful that this or any other sunrise I have or will ever see.
she shrugs, it's crazy that she don’t seem to think this. I mean it's completely crazy that she even said hi to me but I'm happy she did.
I woke up to a vague image of a shadow standing over me not moving but just standing there ,staring. I blinded trying to get a clear sight, who is this where am I. The figure doesn’t appear to be Alec. I blinked repeatedly, not too much concern with how crazy I might looked to this person.my vision had start to clear, it was him.my dad, staring at me with a blank look on his face. He smiles finally Katy your up. I just got back come give me a hug sweetie. I blank headedly got up and give him a hug.

'so you haven't been reading as much kay should I be worried?""why would you ever be worried about me"he smiles and said "i guess you're having one of those girlie mood swings today "as he walk out my bed room into the living room. He couldn’t have left sooner. I attempted to gather my thoughts. Not sure what is real from what isn't. I decided to stop torturing my brain, I'll leave it allow for now. I looked over at the pale of books stacked on my cabinet not quite felling the urge to pick a signal one up. I signed "my world started feeling smaller and smaller. I lazily to slow steps outside heading straight to the bathroom. I washed my face and brush my teeth then got in the shower making sure I take longer than usual. It's not like I had plans any way. I hopped out the shower an hour later dried my legs ,arm ,etc. i put my robe on and heading back to my room. Feeling awfully dead I didn’t care at all what I wear. I just dragged on my nightgown and heading back outside for some breakfast which was more like brunch since its already one o'clock.