Notes

I have known him for about 3 years, throughout those years we may have our disconnections and connections but either way we have each liked each other for a while now. We spoke through the times when we were still far from each other, or through the times where we needed to smile. During 1st period together, he is the only one I keep my eye on. I tell the people nest to me "that my man, soon to be my man actually". i love the way he holds my hand, the way he hugs me and wraps me around hes arms, and how when my face is on his chest listening to hes heartbeat, i just love the smell he has and is very attractive to me, I want him t be mine even if he already is mine, but not officially yet. He makes me laugh, and smile, and even knows how to forget about the people around me and just care about him. I learned that I am myself with him. Hes different, its not the way other guys like girls are when their together. With him it is as if we act like best friends, joking around with each other, making fun of each other, and also talking shit about the people we dislike. I never realized he would change my life in this type of way. He has impacted my life in for so many reasons making me feel as if I am never alone in the world. With him, There's nothing more I want. For about a month now that he has been doing hes best to be with me. Another one comes in.

Plays basketball and hopes to be so many things in life. Everyday we used to talk non stop and actually spend all my time after school with him. Because I have known him for about 2 months (ever since school started) it feels as if I have known him so much more. In just 2 months I know well to much about him. He makes me laugh once in a while because most likely takes things seriously, he intends to make jokes once in a while but I like being with him. Just yesterday I told myself to forget about everything and just think about him because he was the only one with me. he wrapped his arms around me as if he doesn't want to let go. I wrap my arms around him as well and listen to his heart beat as he speaks. I miss it. With all the time we would have a talk, theres just so much to talk about it is unstoppable. I love the feeling I get when he enters the room with hes earphones on hes ears, hes phone on hes hand, walking towards hes seat thinking to myself "what would I do without you". The way he dresses and styles himself attracts me. He somewhat tells me that he wants to let go of me, but he ends up saying that when he dose let go of me, that would mean losing you and that someone like me shouldn't be lost, because I have been the only person ever since he came her, that had made hes life better. With him, he is the only one I need. Am i down to lose you?

I am so lost for myself, I don't know anything about this situation. So many questions and so many answers. I don't want to lose the only 2 people that makes me feel different in some type of way. They are 2 completely very different people. Exactly to different types of feeling.
What do I do?