Notes

I am in love with my boy friend. But for some reason i cant go up to him in person. Maybe it is because i love him i get nerves around people when i am in love with them. Or it might be because i am scared of him i dot know for sure.

I want to boned more with Mel she is my step mom. I would call her mom but that is only when my sister and brother are not there. Because they thing we should not get close to her because James wont. James dose not like her because she is not mature to take care of one kid. James thinks that since she cant take care of one kid how is she going to take care of us. I love my step mom because she is nice and helps when I need her though she troughs Owen at us. Yes maybe her family is right she needs to pay more attention to him and mature because she has a bite but not that much. She had a fit last weekend and we could not go to sleep. But she is the best step mom I have ever had in my hole life thank you Mel!

Today I had a lot of feelings going at once and I was so confused. But I know what the feelings were they were love,sadness,frightened,sleepy and, happy. I felt all those because of every thing on my mind. There was one thing i was frightened to do and that was me calling my boy friend you are probable thinking why were you scared. Well i loved him that is why i might have to break up with him. I am afraid to because i am good with long distant relationships i can still see you but i have to be confident and I am not confident when he wants to see me i am sorry about that. But that is how my life goes i have not dated any one this long about 5 mouths i have dated him. But i like bad boys not to bad like i have tattoos or perching no i mean i broke a school rule and i want him to be exciting like he will get me to do fun stuff like going on a four wheeler. I did and i think i might have a crush on him but i cant date him he is 28 years old and i am only 14 but i still can look at them and say hot but i cant date them.