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Sam I just need to get this off my chest: you probably been expecting this but I have liked you for so long , I woke up at around 2 am and for some reason I told my self to tell you this, i really would have wanted to do this in person but I can't so here it is: Ever since my first day of xc and I seen you. Thats the reason I stayed in it and continued to pr, just so I can talk to you, but I've never had the guts. 2-3 years pass by and I'm talking to you and even hanging out sometimes. This might be ruining our friend ship but im sorry I need to let this out , I've been holding it for so long, and it's now or never. You are so beautiful , everything about you is , there is nothing wrong with you , and your eyes omg, I swear everytime I make eye contact with you I get nervous, I could write a book about everything that makes you so amazing and one word that is everything wrong with you and thats "nothing ". You might not feel the same way though , I know I'm young, not the hieght you want, and not good lucking , there's many dudes out there that are , and I get that 100% but my parents are 3 years apart from each other . I know I act "immature" and they things i bring up in our convos but im honestly trying to make you laugh and smile, I think deeply about what to reply back, I'm really responsible and mature once you get to know me, for example my dream job would be Google or a cyber security company or work at Spotify. there is a lot about me that you don't know. And you might be thinking that I'm still in highschool so I'll get over it, but I honestly won't. I didn't get over it 2 years ago and don't think I will in 2 more years, I've tried talking to other girls but I couldn't and I felt bad when I would talk to them because I wasn't intrested. And I know your going to college which is super awesome! And there will be so many more good lucking guys , which is even more awesome. And you might not realize but I've been crazy for you for so long. Like I get really defensive about you when anyone says anything about you, I don't care who it is . Thats about all i have to say, and it feels so good to get it off my chest! Whatever you say I will agree 100% and this is will be the last time you hear about this again, but I just need to hear your take on this so I can move on, because this is holding me from moving on, I've thought about just not talking to you so I can get over it, but i can't and won't do that. With whatever you say i still want to be friends and have nothing interfere with it, I just truly want you to be happy. I'd rather know what you want rather then me just being in the same mindstate, I just really wanted to tell you this , and in not pressuring you whatsoever. You probably get this all the time. I actually just said all this. There goes my biggest fear