Notes

can't believe this is it.
I can't believe that.. you're going to be out of my life soon.
The girl that I was chasing after our break up is going away. Lovely, is this the end? No, it is not the end. Jessica Pham, you are the most important person in my life. You think that im just going to let you slip away just like that? You're mine Jessica. I don't want anyone else to be mine. Nobody else can make me feel the way you made me felt. The feelings were indescribable. You made me feel so loved and comfortable whenever I'm around you; just being in your presence made me feel so good and not having that sensation anymore won't be the same anymore. The hallways will be dead to me because the girl that I always look for in the hallways won't be there anymore. The girl with one of the brightest minds and personalities won't be there to lighten up my mood anymore. Who will be my happy person while I'm gone ? Lovely im so torn that you won't be here anymore. Nobody can give me elephants the way you do. The way you would hold my finger if we were sitting beside each other. The way I would get lost in your eyes when we would just look at each other. The way you would kiss my shoulder when you got the opportunity to. The way you would put your head on my shoulder. Lovely, who will I go to when I need to share something? Beby, you made me the person I am today, and I am extremely grateful for that. Lovely, I am willing to wait lifetimes just to be with you again. You make so incredibly happy. I would not want to experience anything with anyone else. That's why I am waiting for you. AND NO, I WONT FIND ANOTHER GIRL. Lovely, it's all about trust. I think trust was one of the main things God was testing us on. There were so many times where I was in doubt, but you love me, and not them. I'm sorry for being such a pain in the ass all the time love. Most importantly, thank you for dealing with it. If you get down, always remember that I am always thinking of you and praying for you. You're such a strong girl, and that's one of the reasons why I love you. You manage to get through anything that is thrown your way. I love it. At your new school, please think of me because I will be thinking of you. Honestly, nothing will be the same anymore love. The littlest things that we did together would make me cry like me looking at your locker. The hallways are just going to be black and white. My sunshine, I love you so much. The love for you will never go away. The elephants we shared together will always get me everytime. The little adventures we had Jessica will always make me smile and wish that I would do it again with you and only you. The laughs we had will always make my heart warm because of the way you would look at me when you smile and laugh. Your little dancing and pointing moves when you sing Self Control. The little deep conversations we would have whenever something would occur. 778-229-0540, not even playing, if you ever ever ever need anything, I am ALWAYS here. At Langley, please continue to excel in every single academic like you always do, and plus it will be easier because I'm not there. Lovely, this is not goodbye. This is just a new chapter written in our book. Thank you for everything, Lovely. I love you so much, Jessica Pham.

"Love has no distance"




These photos and videos are just some of the memories we shared together. I made a playlist with some of the songs you would always sing to me during a facetime call, in real life, or the song would just simply remind me of you. The photos are a compilation of stuff that made my heart melt. I'm sorry if this gift is not the best idea, I just hope that you constantly look back at this saying "damn, im in love with that boy". Jessica Pham, I'll be waiting for you. Remember our pinky promise okay? Jonathan Sergio Juan, signing out.