Notes

July 16 it is remember when we would wait instill it was 12 for our birthdays I still waited for your bday at 12 cus maybe we're not bestfriend anymore but I still count you as my bestfriend why cus u were honestly the bestfriend I always wanted you made my life perfect you tried helping me when you could but i didnt let you sometimes nd you know why and when I call someone bestfriend I keep them as a bestfriend nd i wont call noone a bestfriend cus you will always be that bestfriend maybe u don't like me anymore and idc cus when i love someone that wouldnt change especially someone like you I will always like you as a friend no matter what nd I'm always ganna have your back no matter what nd sorry I'm not the bestfriend you wanted i tried i really did but i couldnt i ruined everything i wish you never met me that way you wont have a bullshit friend like me i didnt think things were ganna happen like this but they did people change Ik I changed into idk what oh well remember when we use to call all those times I still remember when I called you one day nd I asked you a question nd I said aren't you scared when we were not bestfriend nomore nd you said no cus that won't happen then I said u never know nd I said if it did would you pick me over anyone nd you said yea duh nd I said me2 nd look it happen nd you didn't pick me things happen so fast I really thought we were ganna be forever I even told everyone we were ganna be forever but ig not i even told my family off when they talk shit nd i still do and always will why cus i dont like noone talk shit on you nd that real i will always have your back idgaf if i fight nd get my ass kicked cus for you ill fight anyone nd now Ik not to get friends anymore cus I don't wanna get hurt anymore nd people tell me why arent you friends with nancy anymore werent you guys bestfriend nd i say yea nd idk cus i just wanna bust in tears thinking i dont have you nomore nd they also tell me why i still have pictures of you guys nd i say idk cus i still care for them nd love them nd ik that wont change nd they tell me to delete them but i dont nd wont now that I see everyone with a bestfriend I still think damm I wish that was me nd Nancy but it didn't happenn Ik ur probably thinking that this all a lie my words and what im saying well guess what it's not what I say is truth nd maybe ur thinking if i loved you why didn't I go running for you why didn't I get you back why cus I was scared you know i did this for a reason i wanted you guys to leave me for a reason nd all that bullshit i did was for a reason cus i wanted to see if it would help me but i didnt it made things worse but ik why i wont tell you cus i dont talk to you nomore nd im scared ull probably tell people but yup i have a problem oh well life sucks huh i wish it was the same as before i wish i didnt have shit going nd didnt bring it up with you guys but i want the best for you guys is why i hurt myself even more i dont wanna hurt anyone anymore sorry for everthing and This rn what I'm doing I didn't Think I would do this today or rn cus Ik u won't give a fuck but idc what you think
As long I said what I wanted to say im good I just wish you a good happy birthday have fun and enjoy everhthing hope the best for you d this will probably be the longest nd last happy bday and text you get from me good huh i wont bother you nomore good luck if you need help in anything u im still here to keep you happy and remember you told me to make you a poster for your bday well I did but u won't want it so idk what I'll do with it I'll just have it there ig I still have so much to say but idk how and idk if I will well bye nd I don't need a response to this also you could show nayelli cus Ik ull show her anyway if she sees this she knows I love her too nd always will ✌🏻✌🏻✌🏻