Notes

Dear whiteepegaxus,

Never thought that i can find brightness in my life. I just letting my feeling, fell into the darkness side. No one will find and know about this. Until i met someone...

His name is Shirokawa Tenma. His emotionals, his languages, his thoughts, his cuteness, even his shy side are his unique indentity on his image. Never forgotten from my eyes and makes me feel something on my heart.

And it's you.

After that, i'm hiding this feeling from you. I don't want make you sad because this stupid status.

This is my fault, not yours. Especially, i don't want make your gentle feeling hurt. Besides that, i don't want make you feel lonely. Just want make you happy, at least. Make your lips become a bright smile upon your face.

And suddenly, all of confession make me feel confused at first. Someone likes me but who? Then i found something that, someone fall onto my heart. And that's you. I just lost my thought for a moment but... I feel happy. So we're have same feeling? I don't believe this. And suddenly my mind told me that, he doesn't deserve with you. He'll better find someone else because he must feel happy with someone rather than you, still in the darkness without knowing anything and anymore.

But beside that, i still remember what you said to me, "I want be with you."

And that day, June 7th 2017, i made my decision, with you.

Sad at first, then being happy with beloved one. That's my feeling for our love. But i'm not sad. Because if you're be my side, i feel more happy than i does.

Happy 1st Monthsarry, dear beloved White. I don't believe that we still can have more moment. I hope that our promises and willingness will never end.

Remember, i'll try to help you, cheer, and never know what's tiring it self.

Don't let your negative thinking in your little head.

If you feel down because your grades, don't think that you're not the retarded because every person has their ability.

If you feel not good or not in the mood because something, take a deep breath and let your mind. And don't forget to take a rest and eat well.

I'll never tired to reminding you as long as i can do it for you. If i'm not your side, remember that i'll trying to your side.

Don't think that i'm bored with you. Every human has their own busy or work but never forget their beloved one.

n.p: i never put forever and always, because someday forever will be always over, so i'm trying to not say that for our sake.

n.j.f.s: I never tired to say this, so i love you.

Regardless,
soonsvtar