Notes

Note 1: Isolation such a fear is it. We sit here everyday and conversate just to hide how alone we really are. Then again there is no point we will die so utterly anything we attempt is a desperate way to escape this utter fear.
Note 2: Though we can work to do things in life it will most likely end up that everything we do will be erased nothing we do will eventually matter its just time that determines that. Its quite sad infact that humans cannot see such a thing that I am cursed with. I ask for help but i will not recieve anything but ignorance. All i want is caring and passion soon this drug will take those too why wasnt i born a normal child.
Note 3: My release into this sacrificail thing is awful the people and everyone are such filled with ignorance i want to be lifted and free make me a normal child someone else take this curse that i am filled with make me dumb and make me a failure to see such circumstances i do not want this it was forced dexmethalphynidate cursed me I want lifted i dont want controlled let me ascend this world and put my mind to actions deemed nessasary i dont want to live i want to breath and die. This will not happen im slowly fading everything is ending. I cannot mask this pain as once said please help me.
Note 4: Maybe I actually am free. prehaps this isnt a curse. I am one of the ones who realizes life for what it is. I am not broke i am a godly figure if only these others could even precieve what i mean. I am just as human as them just with a mind that is over thought. Puny idiots are being run by idols who dont even know what they are saying. None of this will be read which comes at a disappointment even if it was I doubt anyone could understand what im saying. They said it was a cure but it was actually an awkening. I beg you Do not take dexmethalphynidate. This is my release dont let it be yours. I only ask to be let alone as i cannot hurt anyone since thats all i am capable of I do not control it something ticks inside this ridden brain but i must go before it takes over again. please help me.
Note 5: Isolation and Desolation have taken over forgive me.