Notes

This is for him , although I'm not sure if I'd like to show him because I don't want to scare him off or have this letter be too intense ...
Oh well , maybe the time will come when I do want him to read this ... but until then this will hopefully stay a secret ...
Anyways , I love that you know me . I love your facial expressions . I love the way you say my name . I love the way you want to tell me things . Il ove your smile . I love your laugh . I love that we have the same sense of humour . I love that we're on the same wavelength . I love the friendly flirting . I love our conversations . I love that you care , even if it's ont the kin of care that I want . I love that you are never awkward around me . I love how you smell and how it lingers on my clothes . I love your hugs and how they're warm and safe . I lvoe the way your eyes light up when you laugh . I love that our hands figt together . I love that you're concerned about me . I love that you make me do that cliche sigh . I love how you make me burst into fits of laughter after everything you say , because you really are that funny to me . I love how you trust me . I love how we're best friends . I love that I can trust you . I love that you're close by . I love that I was able to know you . I love you .
I would do adsolutely anything right now to be able too snuggle up next to you , bury my head in your chest , and interlock my fingers with yours . I'd be able to look up at you and smile whenever I wanted to . I'd be able to lean up and kiss you whenever I wanted to . I'd be able to tell you how I feel about you whenever I wanted to .
I want to wear your sweatshirts to bed , watch scary movies with you , talk on the phjone until sunrise , sneak out at night to look at the stars with you , play your favorite video game , make you watch chic flicks , kiss you in the rain , go on walks with you , laugh until I can't breathe , hold hands , I want to fall hopelessly in love with you .
I just want one day with you . 24 hourse . 1440 minutes . 86, 400 seconds . It'll just be you and me . We get to do whatever we want , no interference or anyone else . That's all I want right now .
By loving me you are teaching me to love myself .
Holding hands might just be the cutest thing ever . It's such an intimate gesture , yet so innocent at the same time . When you feel their hadn touching the palm of yours , it's like the entire world is at your fingertips at that moment . And even better , that first time two people ever hold hands , is precious . When the person nudges at your hand and eventually slides their fingers interlocking with yours and you feel your cheeks getting warm , turning a shade of rosy pink and your heart pounding like drums . When they grasp on so tight like it would be impossible to let you go . HJow their hand just seems to fit right into yours as if it was meant to be that way . So beautiful and satusfying with a rush of different emotions . And just with the knowledge that your hands are linked together makes your heart even fonder and you can literally feel how close you are to each other .
The best relationship is when you two can act like lovers and best friends . It'sd when you have more playful moments than serious moments . It's when you can joke around , have unexpected hugs , and random kisses . it's when you two give each other that specific stare and just smile . It's when you'd rather chill inside watching movies , eating junk food , and cuddling rather than go out all the time . It's when you'd stay up all night just to settle arguments and problems . It's when you can completely be yourself nad they can still love you for who you are .
You are one of those rare people that I appreciate having in my life because even when things around me drastically changes , when the leaves turn different shades of colours , and when things do not go accordingly , you are the one thing that always remains the same . You are the constand that reminds me how everything is going to be just fine .
I fantasize about you , you know . But , not in a sexual way . I fantasize about lying in bed with you , you asking for a kiss . Me , being me , I kiss you on the nose . You shake your head , and say , "You know what I mean". So I lean in really close , and kiss you on your cheek . Again you shake your head . "A real kiss , beautiful ". I kiss you on your neck , and whisper in your ear , "You know what they say , if you want something done right , do it yourself". You place your hands on my waist , as you look deep into my eyes . You smile that cheeky grin of yours , and you start to tickle me . You know it's my weakness . I scream and giggle , until we're both worn out . I look deep into your eyes and kiss you . My favourite part about this fanatasy . Is the way you call me beautiful , they way no else has before .
I hate that feeling when you're not necessarily sad , but you just feel really empty and every little thing gets to you and everyone that talks to you makes you angry and you want to punch everyone in the face . But than there is one thing that changes that feeling everyday , and that thing is you . whenever you give me a hug , whenever you give me a kiss , whenever you hold me tight , I always feel so much better then how I was before . I love you so much with all my heart I don't know what I'd do without you in my life . you're my best friend and you're always there for me whenever I need someone to talk to about anything . without you in my life I feel like nothing , I have nothing to live for , and I have no one to care for and no one to care for me . I always felt this way , but then you came into my life and everythign changed . I've been happier , I've found a reason for living , I have a reason to wake up every morning and I have a reason to go to school too . I don't always feel alone and lost anymore . because I know I have you in my life and nothing else really matters to me . except you .