Notes

I think I like Luci and I know that she and damien have some kind of thing and i don't want to disrupt that because damo is a friend and i'm also not that confident in my own abilities to date someone and i doubt that she is at all interested in me as anything but a friend.
Drank too much and i don't want to become like daniel and rudd not that i dislike them i just dislike their lifestyle
Feel like i can put too much pressure on my friends sometimes like talking to romy
I've had to do a lot to get to where I am from where I was and so i'm paranoid about losing it through stupid things
Feel like I can estrange friends easily
Feel like i screwed up last night making luci matt romy sienna and that group think i drink all the time or im irresponsible or and idiot
Other people seem to text and do things all the time on the weekend whereas I don't really and I don't know how to change that
When I first meet people I usually make a good impression and then after that I feel like I engage them too much or I fail to continue the good impression and usually become barely friends or acquaintances.