Notes

Have you ever felt different about your sexuality. Well I feel like I like boys I do, but I might like girls to. I think I have a crush on a girl, her name is Miranda and when I think about it I can see us together and I think mom would be ok with it... kind of. I want to talk to her about it but its passed the middle of the night and I cant sleep thinking about it. What if I'm gay, do u think she would even say yes to that, I don't even know if she's gay or not. I might be bisexual but how do u know. I'm a teenager (14 years old) and I know that my body is changing but I don't understand what I'm feeling. I can tell u everything I like about her and it would be cool if I tried it to see if I really do like girls and guys, am I bisexual? I like how pretty she looks, I can see us just laying there in bed cuddling like were Girl friends and I like it, we have most things in common, and when I'm near her I can barely get out the words to say something so I stay near people to make sure I know to say something. Sometimes I think maybe this is just a faze or something, but you know... maybe its not, but ill never know if I don't try it and what if it works, will I be happier with a girl... or would I be happier with a guy. In my future I see me with a girl... I haven't really thought about guys but I know I like them to I just... don't know. Right now I DO have the courage to ask Miranda if she likes me in that way, but before I do I want mom to say its ok. I feel like I could type all night about it, but I cant, I know I need sleep and in the morning I will talk to her about it but I think its easier to text about it than talk about it. It helps me get out what I need to say