Notes

Sending to all friends / family, this is Chloe as you know the depressed one as everyone knows me, this is basically a suicide message to everyone, I’m one of these people that brings sadness to everyone, tonight I made my mum cry everyone thought this year was gonna be a new start for me. But it’s just not this year is a end for me. Time to end everything. Mum can’t / won’t bring me to Switzerland to die legally, therefore I’m being tortured to live, when I don’t want to. I’m tired of being the disappointment of school and of my family. Mum will always be in my heart. I’m afraid of maybe forgetting her when I die, but I will always love mum. My life was Aimee the love of my life the one, I said Aimee I can’t live without you, I’ve proved I can’t, I cut with razor blades every night, I used to be able to watch YouTube or live streams to draw attention away from wanting to die every second of the day. School no body not one person want me there, not one person want me. Reply I got when I asked your advice on how to die, you know who u are you told me, “hurry up and do it you attention seeker” but what you and others don’t understand is I’m crying out for help when I ask them questions someone to care. But that’s never gonna happen with me. I get blocked. Used. Then blocked. I don’t wanna be alive after 2am tonight, I can’t do another day. When I’m dead I want everyone that was mean to never do that to another person. I hate life. I hate me. I wish I was different and funny and hyper like the perfect people. But I’m just me. The nobody. The slut. The gay girl. I hope one day you all see why this happened. I’m gonna miss certain people like my mum. It’s meant to be. I’m not made to live, I’m made for the ground. I don’t want to have eyes or anything’s human has, I want that all to go away, I want to die. Friends + Family, I love you so much, this is goodbye.