Notes

its crazy to think. your best friend. The person you say is your world, such a great friendship to where you say 'i love you' at the end of the phone call. a few weeks after i told her i was moving across the country,we even decided we would still be best friends the country can't stop us. well that's what i thought. i was told she found a new best friend for when i leave.to my face. i thought thats okay we all needs friends . a week later you ee this random girl on her story that says bffl which appartenly means best friends for life. all i thought was if we ever did that and i know that we seem stronger. but at times i feel like we are breaking, slowly,breaking. it hurts. i have felt like i've been pushed down.stabbed in the back had my guts pulled right out of me. but this. it hurts and i can't put m eye on what this feels like. but its the worst of all. i can't tell if its the part whenshe said i fund a NEW bestfriend to face or the fact that she acts like nothings wrong when we meet but i know somethings up,or when she says she understands when i know she doesn, or ami i jus that crazy. honestly i feel like my heart jut feels like pausing,taking a break,slowing it down. maybe im just over reacting. maybe i;m just that stupid and self center'd i just hope she's happy. maybe thats it. i feel betrade but i want her to be happy idk i really do think im crazy.