I should have done this way sooner. Maybe I guess, I have been waiting for you guys to do this instead, but I can see now, that is never going to happen. You guys don't know me as well as you guys think, being as I have only know you guys since last year, and the start of this year. Even friends I have known for a while, don't understand or even KNOW I do this, so I will just fill you in. Everyone knows you guys are both mad stubborn, but I feel like I am a lot worst when it come to fights with friends. I don't just ignore them, I completely stop caring about them. I cut them off from my life and I loose all respect for that unfortunate friend, and honestly start to hate them. It gets to the point where I totally forget I was ever friends with them, unless I am reminded of the fight, or the friendship. And I am sorry to say that is what happened to you both. I completely forgot you guys were my friends and I realized I don't care about your lives anymore. Kinda a shocker on how little you made an impact in my life huh? Maybe this isn't the message from me that you guys have been waiting for, but all this comes together, hold on. I am only mentioning the small impact in my life because this happens. Friendships end. I told you Jennifer, 9th grade, that we were going to have a huge fallout during our high school career. What surprises me is that you didn't realize that this is the way I have always acted. I have always distant myself from you, and everyone else, in 9th grade. Sure not all the times, but I had days, weeks even, that I went without wanting to talk, and just stayed in my head. And maybe you had so much in your life that you didn't realize what was going on, but I only bring this up because I have done this in the past. And you have never cared, or at least shown you cared. From what I hear, and believe is that you guys were never mad at me. You guys just wanted to know if I still liked you people. I can respect that, you guys wanting to know where our friendship stood. I completely get that, just wondering if I am mad at you guys and I had disagreed, that I just had a lot to think about…now this is where the lines get blurry. I have always known from day one when I introduced Cynthia to you Jennifer, and you had made fun of her interest, that you guys weren't going to get along. And maybe you don't remember, but I do. Because it was that day when she was updating me about her life, because I haven't seen her for a whole year, she mentioned thinking about becoming a cheerleader. Then you had made the most disgusted face and said something along the lines of "ew, why do you want to be a cheerleader?" And she didn't become a cheerleader, as you know. It was that day when I realized you guys will never be friends. But I was wrong. Cynthia has a way of growing on people. You guys did get along, it took a while but we got to this routine and I don't know if you Jennifer, just pretended to like her because you realized that she wasn't going anywhere. I honestly don't believe that, but at least that way of thinking would accommodate for you going to laughing and joking around with her to straight out hating and talking bad about her.
