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I don't know what helped me through it. I know that little by little I became so empty I probably just stopped caring about people and what they used to think or say. I was so empty I didn't even care about dying or telling people they should've noticed me. That wasn't the right way too, but I got through it anyway. I got through everything and now I'm here, some years later, and yes I still allow myself to be weak and sad, and yes I still wish I could come back and tell that little girl she's not alone. I wish things had been easier. But I'm glad I'm here, I'm glad I make it through. I still don't know how I managed to do that but I know what mattered the most was that I was not lonely. Having people holding my back. Having friends.They didn't heal me, but it helped me. It still does. And maybe they still do not know anything about my later past or my "dark years", maybe they do not know everything about me, but they mean something to me and a very small part of me would like them to know about this. But my purpose isn't really to talk about the importance of having friends or avoiding suicide. I'm here to tell people that now I'm sure I wasn't the only one to feel like that. I wasn't the only wasted, empty person on earth. I wasn't the only lonely and willing to hurt myself person in that highschool neither. And I want everyone who feels even just a little as I felt to know that there are some people who would listen to you, who would help you. Give them a chance. I haven't been through hell but I surely have been through some shit and I know how hard it is for you to talk about it. But just give it a try. Just give me a try. I'm scared sometimes I wouldn't be able to understand, I'm sorry about that. I hope you don't blame me. I hope you give me a second chance. But speak. It might help you even if it's not likely to solve things all of a sudden.
And most of all, what I wanted to talk about is: the importance to weigh your words. Weigh your opinion and your actions. Before you hurt somebody just for fun. Before you hurt somebody back because you're angry. Before you call a girl 'whore' with no reason at all or because she did something that YOU consider a mistake. Before you say somebody is a dick but you don't know them at all. Before you talk behind somebody's back: if you don't feel like being sincere, don't speak at all. Before you leave people aside with no reason and before you judge people by their appearance or tastes. Before you make fun of something or even worse, you totally bully someone (I've been through this too and that's not fun and i'm pretty sure you know it). Before you call people names because you believe they owe you something or you're just envious or jealous. Allow yourself to feel like this: envious or jealous. Allow yourself to fail and be messed up, but do not allow yourself to hurt others because of this. You can't always be perfect, you are human. But you can surely learn to be nicer and kind to others: not because you want them to believe you're a good person, but because most of the times there is no reason for not doing it. Listen to them. Listen to anyone who just wants to talk or seeks help. Don't be too hard, don't rush into judging people or hurting them on purpose. And when you do, say you're sorry. Honestly I think we should always say how you feel, but I understand it's hard. I just ask to you, but also to myself, to be kinder. To be careful. To pay attention. To be honest. To face the consequences of your actions.
And last, since all of this started from this tv series, I want to ask you -and me- to stop blaming the victims. Don't blame it on them. Don't blame it on the suicidal girl, on the rape victim, on the depressed or sick boy. Don't blame it on the ones you don't understand. Stick with them: as if I wish somebody had just told Hannah they loved her and not only that she was a 'drama queen' and a 'liar'. I wish somebody had helped those girls from being assaulted and that they could've actually talked to somebody without being scared of being misunderstood. Don't blame it on the person whose nudes have been stolen and sent to anybody in your school. Don't blame it on anybody who looks 'weak' or not smart enough to you. That's surely not what 'being nicer' looks like. But being nicer well that, that would totally help you. And people around you. That would've helped me.
With love,
just another Hannah.
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