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how could I ? , how could I say what in my chest , how could I tell you how much I love you, how could i love someone without no fear how could i trust anyone again how could i be just like anyone and live my life normally i miss my old days , NO i actually miss old me i miss the person who i were before , before everything changes and becomes terrible i mean i was breathing living and having a good life good friends no they were more than good they were amazing they meant the world to me , but suddenly something came up and take all my friends away from me and leaft me alone even my boy friend and my family they all were taken away from me they betrayed me one after one and that was a big shock in my life i tried to move on but i could’nt cause they once meant everything to me there were no one for me but them and my heart just attached to them and it broken after them so i decided to go in the hardest path the one that keeps you away from all the people around you even if you love them and you cant stay away from them because there was no choices so i decided to stay away , alone by myself like i am living in my own world like they are not existed i show them a very different character of me a fake one someone who like to stay alone to be alone to live , laugh, play , hang out,cry , enjoy alone that was not me that is really was not me i cant handle all that i hate being alone being ignored i used to be with someone to create a wonderful relationships to love and beloved but after them i stay alone and i didn't made a real relationships even one i was so afraid to get heart to be broken again i just stop here for almost 3 years , imagine three years of sadness loss and death .

i have no idea if i ever could love again , hug someone hold hands and getlove as much as i gave , i finally loved someone a real love after this three years but unfortunately its unilateral love (from one side) and i never reveal it