Notes

ok...... This is unexpected but its for a reason... You probably gonna get the reading this in the a.m or p.m. I might send this to you on IG or Twitter. I want to be serious as fuck about this, so ill get straight to it. I dont wanna say it, i dont wanna even think about it. Since me and you been dying down. Badly. I dont wanna think about a tombstone of my relationship with you. Now you dont realize this but I tried to give my heart and soul. That was the reason why I gave you like almost my heart in them long mf paragraphs lookin like a novel mixed with a script from a movie. ESPECIALLY the one where you didnt know what to say. I shock you and that was all the feelings I had and still have for you since, prolly when i first laid eyes on you. I dont know where the all the other intense love and affection came from but I want it to be said to the right mf person (you). When the school year was almost over, i remember that the most memorable thing that happened was every time we see each other, we pass up each other like cars on the highway. Now I can give myself a slap from every time we pass up each other in the hallway without speaking to each other even looking at each other. You already know that Im lowkey as fuck. I can be highkey but I choose not to. I regret passin up each other with no words said or eyesight. I regret it before it even happens because itll be the same routine. Now Im goin through this routine where i think that im not the boy that you want to be with. because? I cant answer that but i can try. the answer is "i went through some shit, ion wanna be stuck in the predicament" or "ion like him no more, i moved on and he NEED to do the same". Those answers especially the second one revolves around my mind when I think about you. Its a corruption, a virus and painful inside. I embrace it by typing these stories on my phone. One day i might show you but dont want to because i poured my deepest thoughts x feelings with it. The sot