Notes

Oh, hello! Well, alright then. You seem pretty intrigued about this, lol. Your love for solitude is quite fascinating. We share mutual opinions about it in many ways. Although, i just want to state a few points. Call me Lee btw. I am not really in the mood to be extremely eloquent with you at the moment, because i am currently suffering from interminable ennui! I hope you don't find this complex. And really hate this font btw (i sorta took advantage of this limitless space and elaborated)
Now, you have answered my question well and i like that. I tend to judge a person based on the questions he asks and the way he responds. But anyway, it is my turn.
Who is there to fathom solitude other than yourself?
Well, to begin with, there are two types of solitary. 1) Physically. 2)Mentally... They are two elements that revolve around the same idea yet they are very far apart. Type 1). I read enough from your answers to comprehend that you enjoy being alone. To work, to sit, to sleep, to study, to do any daily activities, and perhaps, to live alone. You find entertainment and amusement on your own rather than seeking it from the people encompassed by you. I, on the other hand, am a gregarious person. It is glued to who i am. Or, to be honest with you, forced into who i am. My humour is often used to enthral people. In other words, I hide behind the shadow of humour to mask the true capricious person that I am. But that does not necessarily imply that i can not handle loneliness. On the contrary, I love to spend time alone. In darkness too. It is quite peaceful and placid. I enjoy that. Silence and physical solitary tend to immensely relax me. Although, in my life, i am sort of forced to frequently communicate with people. They do not lucidly assimilate my love to solitude and therefore i am constantly enervated. By "they" i mean my family. They perceive isolation as something trivial and not serious. I think it is the fact that do not really accept it either. Basically, i am a misinterpreted person.

Type 2) Mentally or internally. There is a great difference when you are alone and when you are alone while feeling lonely. That solitude is not something you plan or decide to feel. You can sit alone in your room for hours, possessed with jubilation and comfort. And you can sit alone in your room, in a corner, feeling lonely and despondent. It is kind of a hallow emotion, and it leaves me quite cold. You stated that we have to accept solitary in able to not suffer from it. It is easier to say it than to actually do it. One can not wake up any day and learn to accept loneliness. It takes time and time and time and time until you finally come to a conclusion that it will remain there and will never leave. That is when you accept it. And it takes fortitude to do so. I am alone in my thoughts and mind. Alone in my melancholy. Alone in myself. To know that my sort of sanity is insanity for someone else will, inevitably, make me lonely. It use to be cumbersome for me, dealing with such an equivocal emotion. It's convoluted still more than sorrow. However, i have dwelled far too long in that poignant atmosphere that i fathomed how interminable it is, and slowly..very slowly, grew to understand it.
It causes immense solitude to acknowledge how very alone i am inside my own delusional world. Solitude that is both addictive and sad, as if i am not whole without its presence. I suppose you must first comprehend something in able to fall in love with it. Same goes for sorrow. I guess they are both what makes me...me.
Solitude is fathomed differently for everyone. Everyone's knowledge towards a certain thing is their own truth. I don't know why i chose to write and interpret myself to you. I have never spoken about this matter clearly to anyone. And maybe even to you too. I did not dig deep within myself this time and you have to be thankful for that. I tend to become powerfully yet terrifyingly dark. I am a random stranger that is curious and you are a random stranger that is interesting so i had to say something.

Thank you for enduring this!