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I apologize for responding late you, I was not.,,, stable. But i am now. I have read your answer numerously through out the day though. I have a minor fault in which i scan hurriedly and tend to miss out some information.

The way i judged you, well, i also must apologize, but your answer was veraciously exasperating. I can not recall the precise words that you had said but i do remember changing my entire opinion on you. I have been following you for quite some time now but i have never thought of asking a question. I knew my own answer before i came to ask you of course; I was examining you, to see if you are legitimately acknowledgeable on what you speak of. I did not want an enormous collaborative answer either, sometimes less is more. But you did present one and i thank you once again for that. Although, If you do want to know what my opinion towards you now is, well, it still remains interesting in a way. In addition to, pleasant and convivial! I do not speak with people who i find dull or insipid even if they are highly intellectual. I am esoteric and so are the people i select to share my thoughts with.

Yes, indeed. I strongly agree with you. We are never mentally lonesome if our own self is a good company. Commonly, people fathom one in two things. Or two in three things. For example, a person may understand sadness, but not solitude. Or contradictory to that, solitude but not sadness. Which is why it may cause complications and leads to bad company with oneself. In able to be in good company with yourself, all emotions must be comprehended. At least, that is what i think. Not everyone has the fortitude to introspect, it is mentally enervating. It is a gift, i suppose. Both a gift and a curse.

I did not reach where i am easily. I never read an article. I never read a philosophy book. I never watched psychology shows. I never discussed it with people. I just took big things and diminished them into micro-things and discovered what each detail means. It took a great deal of introspection and contemplation. I don't know how or when i landed where i am. It is such a horrifying situation, when you realise how much of reality you have skipped when you are inside your own head.

"i accept the sadness i bring upon myself, the sadness of solitude, but i ll not accept a sadness anyone else brings upon me." This got me a little thinking for some unknown reason. I share that mutually as well, but I think rarely do people accept that. I mean, the sadness they bring upon themselves is usually more cumbersome than the sadness people cause. Which is also another reason for not understanding these convoluted emotions.

You repeat " I am My own misery." while I repeat, "I am alone in my own melancholy."

As much as i enjoy your ask.fm page, i actually never read an answer. Not observantly anyway. I rapidly scan through them. So what i am saying is not what i want you to hear, i am not from that type. I speak my mind and my thoughts honestly. Your presumptions did not influence me either. Again i repeat, i am not from that type. If i wanted to speak only what you wanted to hear then I would have publicly talked to you. Either to brag or to impress others. I am rather furtive and quiet.

I am pondering about a certain question, do you do this with everyone? Give them the permission to write something to you by using this website? No special reason, only the fact that i would like to know you better.

Also, thank you for your kind, warm words! You are the third person to ever think of me as remarkable. I have deeply enjoyed your words as well ! You fathomed easily, and that eases our discussion. We have congenial minds and i like that. I enjoy people that introspect quite frequently, I would like to speak to you again. I am glad our paths have intersected.

Thank you for enduring this.
Lee.