Notes

2022march at lastafter years of waiting for that strong soul
that was going to recognize me and motivate me to get on and use my talents
ive been stuck in a rut for too long now 6 years roughly sat in this house wasting away ,my talents my gifts
i know i have a lot to give ,i know when women meet me they change their look my energy alone my bottle or guts if you like,makes them do their hair use contacts buy and wear makeup ,lose weight look fabulous younger and becxome more daring ,more vcolourfull confident. learn to drive go out no longer wear their berkhas.
i absolutely love it i love to see people shine brightly kick off the veil of confindment ,choose life looking great equals feeling great , however beauty does come from within, its a waste of polluted air to purchase and wear all the exciting glamour that we adore its fun playfull and creative and in some cases help us get noticed get spoil thats not to say that natural beauty also qualifies us to be included to be admired taken out or take someone out , im not sexist nor am i feminist im just me .,so for example you nought all this makeup clothes you look great , but you barge past that person who has heavy bags, you take a seat and leave someones mum whose been working all day and is clearly tired ,standing .chatting loud in your language on your phone the bus is full , or you think you look good so your above others ,or your swearing ,talking about you the whole time,my worst one is saying ,God or jesus christ the dangerous one GODdamit disgracefull meaning without grace ,in other words empty shallow no makeup could ever cover up such ugliness,the sad thing is people are not aware that they are actually cursing the situation at hand,and even their own lifes , very ingrained past on through generations and ofcourse the media , the tv ,programmes indeed programing us for destitute damned futures programed beainwashed uninteligent powerless without even noticing how and where it happened.from what i have heard the american language rife with thhose self harming weapons of slow self destruction.believe it or not it is the truth english next i dont know about others actually spanish awfull il shit on the virgin mary or il shit on my mother forgive me lord for eveb writing these words ,ive tried to let people know but they carry on then they wander why i wont visit them fuck in hell all day long the words repeated become mantras ii personally would rather say good h heaven or goodness me do you see what im saying. colombia we swear yes but thank GOD which we say every 5 minutes or if its Gods will but we would be scared to say such ugly derogatory things and allow them to be passed onto future generations,we ought to be caefull and wise and thoughtfull with our words and actions sadly things are how they have been written in the latter day of the law say sgi the original buddhists ,or the end days says the bible . muslims i dount very much that they have ugly words to do with their beliefs or other peoples beliefs i admire them and they are beautifull im proud to say that my youngest beautiful daughter Bryony sol married a half algeria half englishman at the age of 21 b;ess them see thats a very good thing to say a lot for others ,so they are happy in love she became a muslim from christian on their wedding day ,and they have two stunning baby daughters Elena Cataleya after me, and medina Rosa after my mother Rosealba. the girls have stunning blue eyes and red curly long hair Elena is anout ton turn 3 in march and blonde hair still one cute small huge personality medina .