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Note: My English isn't good enough. I'm still learning English and i am sorry about that if i make grammar mistakes. I hope you will understand what i wrote. (I will be glad if you correct my mistakes)

Note 2: I'm not good at storytelling

I'm a 15 years old Turkish boy and i have religious Muslim family like other families in Turkey. They know i don't believe in religions because i explained that almost 1 year ago. We argued a lot of times but my father was more understanding to me than my mother. So i want to explain that i want to dress feminine to my father first. I thought he would more understand me than my mother about that. 2 days ago i finally I gathered my courage and after dinner i said "Dad, Can we talk about something privately" and he accepted. After dinner we went to a room and i closed to door and we sat on chairs. As soon as i explained i want to dress feminine he said "Are you gay?". I said "No, i just want to dress like a girl. Because i like feminine clothes". After that he deepened his voice and said "Are you stupid? I have honor and i won't let my son to dress like woman. Can you see a man dressing a skirt in street? No, you cant because some clothes are for only for men and some clothes are only for women. A man can not wear skirt or something like that. And i think you are gay, even if you not you will be gay if you start dressing like women (yeah,
Turkish families are not very knowledgeable about these topics)" After that I told him that it's okay for a man to dress like a woman because no one is being harmed if i dress like that. But he didn't understand me and he said same things again and again a lot of times. (We argued almost 1 hour but I'm summarizing everything) I think he didn't want to understand me. After that he said "We will talk again later" and went to sleep and i went to cry. Next day i only saw him once and almost we never talked .Today i have never seen him (probably i will see him in the evening). I don't know what he thinks about me but i'll never give up until until I convince my family.