Notes

Okay, this might be a bit long, but please read this. I'll tell you this because I dont want to hide anything from you. Still remember the day when we kept flirting and teasing each other? Yes I've liked you since that time. But I keep telling myself dont put my hope too high. And seeing you with all of your noonas/girl friends made me jealous. But then I didnt have any right to get jealous to you at that time right? I've tried to keep a distance from you, but I cant. Still at the same time, I'm getting closer again with this person, my ex. He's wufan. Suddenly he was being nice to me again, saying all those sweet words again. But what should do? Someone already stole my heart, yes that person is you. I also started to keep a distance from him. Dont want to give him any hope. Dont want to hurt him as well. One day, I had a talk with Eunji, you know her right? I told her everything. She said come back to wufan. I said no. I dont want to. I cant. I cant lie to my heart. She knew my reason is you.

Then that day, when you confessed your feelings to me. I felt like my heart was going to explode anytime soon. Two reason. First because I was happy knowing that you had the same feelings towards me, second because you said you couldnt replace someone in your heart. You know it feels like you lift me to the sky so high then dropped me to the ground so hard. Once again, I was trying to stay myself away from you, but just like before. I failed. Oh, you know the rest of this story. I dont need to continue.

Maybe I thought about him once or twice before. But that's all. I dont have any feeling towards him anymore. I miss him as a friend. We still talked to each other before but then he stopped contacting me after I'm with you. It looks like he's avoiding me or something. We've known each other for long time. That's why I dont want to end our friendship just like that. I hope you didnt mad because of this. I just want to be honest to you. No secret.

Trust me, please trust me. It's you, now and tomorrow and the next day too it's only you. No one else matters. I only love you. You’re simply the best and I couldn’t ask for more. I don’t ever want to lose you, really. Well, its hard to put feelings into words but I believe you can definitely understand it.

p.s: And I want to be the person you fall hopelessly in love with too.