Notes

I know some things are happening right now and I'm sorry about it, but I just wanted to write you a little something. I hope you enjoy it.

I Love You<3

Hey baby, all I wanted to say was I love you. I know I say it a lot and it gets annoying sometimes. But It's the truth. I love everything about you; Your smile, your hair, your body, your attitude, everything. When I'm just sitting in class and don't have anything to do all I think about is you. I miss you when I'm gone, I just wish I didn't mess shit up all the time. Just like earlier, I said my phone was dead.

Which it was, but I could have just gone upstairs and talked on dis. I'm sorry for not doing enough for you, all I want is for you to be happy. I don't care about anything else, your happiness is the only thing that I care about right now.

But with me being a shity bf that doesn't help matters. I love you and I can't stress that enough. When you say "You don't really care" or "It's all a joke to you with your friends." That hurts so much. Thats just telling me that I don't do enough to show you I care. All I want in my life is to be with you one day, meet your dad and impress him, and make you smile. I know I don't do the last thing, 90% of the time.

I just make you sad and hurt. You cut because of me, you cry because of me, you don't sleep because of me. I just Love You SO Much, I don't want to lose you or miss out on spending my life with you. Every time I do clear out my camera roll, I see you and start crying a little. I can't help but smile or laugh when I see you. Even just you saying "Goodmoring baby" in the mornings is amazing. I would do anything to just have you by my side for an hour. So when you do say that I don't care, that's when I know I need to do more. I don't do enough for you, like showing emotion or talking.

If I'm being completely honest I couldn't ask for a better gf, you never judge me for anything and are always there for me. I wish you were here all the time. When people describe simp, that's me 100%. People make fun of me for talking about you all the time, and so do my friends but that doesn't help the fact that there just saying the truth. I love you, babe always have always will.

Baby, if you need anything from me or I can do anything to make you happier please just tell me, even if that's giving you space. I don't mind, letting you be alone. I just hate being alone, because the insecure part of me is saying that you're out with someone else. But I need to have trust, this is not me saying that I don't trust you. I just can't trust people all the time. I've known my best friend for 8 years and I still haven't really told him about you

When it's the middle of the night I can't find a way to sleep, I turn on calming music videos, go through my camera roll of pictures of You and start crying. I can't help but smile when I see the notification I get so happy. Or see the 7-8 mesgs in the mornings. I love getting those lil mesgs, I love talking to you and I love being with you. I couldn't ask for a better friend and I couldn't ask for a better gf. When I say I wanna spend my life with you. I don't bs about that, I fucking love you Tia, I want to spend my life with you. I don't wanna leave you ever, so please don't leave me.

You're the best thing to happen to me. Writing this has made me think, about just how much you really mean to me. I wouldn't trade you for anything. I don't care what's the case, I love you more than my own family. When you push me away I know I did something bad and I feel bad about it. But then I realize that sometimes all you need is space. You're still the girl I fell in love with months ago, and I love you SO much for not giving up on me.

Baby when you say that you "Love me" I don't know if you really mean it. But thank you for saying it, my own family doesn't say they love me. And for you, someone who has barely knowns me, to say that means a lot. I honestly couldn't say it enough. The "Thank You/I Love You," just means so much to me. You mean so much to me I don't want to lose you, ever. So if you don't mind it, stay with me?

I just wanna thank you for sticking around with me, thank you for being there for me when I needed you, thank you for being my rock when I need you, and thank you for giving me something to look forward to. I love you SO much and I really can't stress that enough. I want you to be with me right now, and not in a different country. I seriously believe that in the future I don't have to have the internet to talk to you.

I just wanna cuddle you at night until you fall asleep In my arms, I want to do all that romantic stuff with you. As long as you're happy I don't care what we do. I don't care if it's face masks, cuddling, watching movies, or just laying with you. I just want to be with you, you mean everything to me. I couldn't live without you, and when I say that I don't just say it to say it. I seriously mean it.

I just wanted to write this because I love you, you mean so fucking much to me and I love you more than life itself. So if you would do me the favor and stay around I would love that. I'm yours to the end Baby, yours and always yours.