tbh idk how 2 reply 2 this other then the fact that im speechless. it was unexpected 4 the exact reason you listed which is thta you havent sent 1 in a while. i was ready 2 j wake up 2 the same 'gm' like usual but today i woke up 2 well a paragraph that you sent me following w a gm. weve been on bad terms and thats bc of me, i havent really been considerate a how you feel, i should pay attention 2 you mor but instead i dont. and dont thank me 4 being youre bestfriend bc i should really b thanking you. idk y you wrote the part ab me sticking w you at your worst bc its the other way around, unless you j havent shared the fact that you were at your worst, which incase that was please try opening up 2 me more, id want 2 try and help <3 i dont feel good enough bc im not, tbh idk y sleepy likes me, idk how you can even put up w me. lets face it, we can both b hard 2 put up w and annoying, but thats okay, it doesnt make me love you any less. and im sorry ab the times im dry, its not that i dont wnat 2 talk its j ive probs j either did smt that i regret or smt is on my mind and it has me overthinking, but sometimes even you can make me forget ab it by j talking 2 me. and its okay 2 b dry once in a while, every1 is so no need 2 b sorry. and i swear 2 you that ill do the same, i wont leave you, idc if im tired or mad and yk how bad my anger is, if im anger and say some messed up stuff ignore it bc i dont mean it and i love you. im pretty sure i already said this but please start expressing your feelings more, itll b easier 4 me 2 help and understand you more. idc what terms we are on either, ill always love you 2 the point id legit die 4 you. btw even if you cant help me solve my youre there 2 listen and even that sometimes helps. we fight bc of me and my anger, or of your jealousy but its okay bc i have jealousy issues 2. you arent easy 2 replace, no 1 online has even stayed w me 4 this long and put up w me. dont b jealous of them bc none of them have stuck w me 4 as long as you have, so id never replace you w 1 of them. dont say as long as your as in me is happy then me as in you is 2 bc we both know thats a lie, its okay 2 open up and express how you really feel, id love 2 hear. and its not dumb. and i think were drifting 2 but thats okay bc bestfriends drift, it doesnt mean the friendship is ending soon or right then it j means that we arent talking that much, but thats okay, and i really want 2 get back 2 playing and texting even calling more often again w you. i care as much as i use 2 2 i j dont show it as much as you do. dont hesitate 2 text me, im mostly always online and if im not its probs bc im sleeping LOL. i swear you wont b a bother by texting me, so please do, i love when you text me. and i dont think im irreplacable but if you do then maybe, but you also have a special place in my heart, not even a pebble could fill ;) i am? im on your mind? tell me what you think ab when you think ab me. and again im sorry if were on bad terms or dont talk. and you will also b my n1 i swear, and i mena it aswell, and you are mine dw. you will? bc i swear yesterday you got a bit mad bc sleepy likes me- i mean ill love you even if you love some1 else bc that doesnt change anything between us. youve also made an impact in my life, and im grateful 2 still have a friend like you, im happy im able 2 call you MY bestfriend. i love you sm more so stfu, 3/26/21 will always b my favorite day.
