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ur so fucking difficult i try my hardest u just make things so difficult and instead of texting me this morning saying "peyton talk to me i need help i think im gonna do something" u just dont mention a thing then say i dont care to talk about it and guilt you,, can u ever talk to me about it?? u know im always here no matter what,, i just can stand the thought of u doing it and it leading to something worse i cant lose you sarah i get mad when u do cuz u promised me and it makes me mad thinking ab losing u I'm sorry we're not what you thought we could be this is way worse than I thought it would be I know that I'm not what I promised to be I know that I'm really all that you want i wish you could say im all that u need because i havent been the best obv I don't know who I've been trying to be i tried hard in our last relationship to change but i couldnt until we broke up and thought i was totally a dif person but obv it wasnt enough its just so difficult to try again after our past



and i just dont think we can try or be as close as we have been for the past few years because its gonna ruin us both im still here for you no matter what u can always talk to me ab sum i still love you so much im sorry we coukldnt work out maybe some day in the future who knows ik i want to we will just have to see i still want u to be my first and only ofc but as far as a commited relationship we cant do it for our own emotional and mental health it just ruined us both im sorry sarah beth i love you so much and i always will thatll never go away but we cant do it right now im always here for you and i wanna see how things go down the road i still wanna be updated on ur life and family, always talk to me if u feel ur gonna do something bad, i still wanna know ab the boys in ur life,, i love you sarah beth never forget that, ill never lose that,, talk to me ab anything serious but i dont think together we can be right now, even as friends itll ruin me idk ab u tho,
i love you sarah reynolds to the moon and back
<3



- b chebelle