Notes

Okay so when I was 9 I was living with my mom and my bio sister and her boyfriend, My sister and her boyfriend would always get into physical fights and I would run to the neighbor's house and they would call the cops, then when my mom died when I was 10 I moved in with some relatives in southern Utah that I didn't know and I had to completely restart life pretty much, and I though all was going well until my cousin decided to say I raped him when I was 11 then I got put into foster care and I was with this really nice old couple for a couple of years until her husband died then she got rid of me, then after I moved into my current placement I was on vacation in Oregon when I got a call from my best friend at the time saying that her boyfriend just dumped her for someone else and that she was about to kill herself and, without hesitation, I texted a mutual friend that went over to her house and found her passed out on the ground with a bottle of pills he called 911 and the medics were able to save her, she was in the hospital for a while so they could make sure she was okay and her parents put her into therapy, and still to this day she thanks me for picking up the phone and answering her and actually doing something about it from 2000 miles away, and then a couple months later it was the first day of the new school year and my foster mom was being a bitch and wouldn't let me go to school and I was about to kill myself but ended up not and then when I got to school during 4th period our principle came in and said that a kid killed himself that same morning when I almost did the same shit and even though I didn't know the kid it still gets me in tears to this day to think about it because he had a family and friends that cared about him, and whenever I think of suicide he pops into my head and i remember how bad that fucked me up even though i didn't know him and I would never want to cause that pain to anybody, and now I am a huge advocate of mental health and I promised myself that I will never ignore a phone call from anybody because you never know when it could save someone's life, holy shit that was a lot but now you preaty much know my whole life story and why I do the things I do!