Notes

what am i doing wrong. i know you still use instagram to look at other girls. say you don’t, i know you do. i don’t know what more you want from me. you look at girls online, besides instagram and onlyfans. you move from onlyfans just to another version on a different site. part of the reason i even got this surgery is so you look at me the way you look at them. you’re always saying “i dont like skinny” yet that is all you look at. how am i supposed to believe you. all you do is lie about the stupidest shit over and over and over again. do you want me to go? do you need a few days by yourself? tell me what you want 100%. genuinely, no fucking lies this time. do you want me or not. all you’re doing is pushing me away and all i want is you. it makes no sense. why does it ALWAYS feel like you don’t feel the same. when you gave me a ring i thought it would all stop, and i know you won’t. you’ll just get better at hiding it. it may not be cheating to you, but emotionally it takes a toll. all i think about anymore is how you don’t want me. how you don’t even find me attractive enough to fuck me. you have to look at other girls just to even want to do me, it hurts. but do what you want, like i’ve always said. and just like every other time i’ll forgive you over and over again. just for you to tell me what you think i want to hear. but please just tell me what you want.

i’ll probably spend the night at my house just so i don’t bother you. have a good day at work. love you.