Notes

Ellis I am so sorry for how you are feeling, it is such a horrible place to be in life. I still have evil thoughts daily and have for a long time. My mom tells me she doesn't love me and that I'm worthless almost daily. I hate myself and no one loves me and I can't help thinking that. I had no one in my life that cared about me or how I was feeling until I found you. I can tell you stuff on your ask or even dm you if I get brave enough and you always will talk to me and try to make me feel better, to make me feel loved. Somehow you make me feel loved and like someone cares and you don't even know me. Last week I was in the lowest point I have ever been and was considering ending my life, and I almost did. But I went on your ask and talked to you and you stopped me. You kept me alive. Talking to you you showed me that you do actually care about me when no one else does. For that and much more I will be forever grateful. You are such a gorgeous person, and I'm not just talking about your looks. Everything about you, the way you think, the way you talk, the way you love, the way you see the world, everything is perfect. You have been going through so much in the past few weeks and it kills me. It hurts my heart that such an amazing person such as you is having to go through everything that you are. Honestly it is hard for me to tell you this because I never believed it until you made me last week, but things are going to get better. Everything in your life is going to be figured out and happy soon. Everything that is causing you to think bad thoughts, everything that is stressing you, and every problem you have right now. I have no doubt that you will come out of all of this better than you ever have, because you are Ellis. You are so strong and you always find a way through everything and that inspires me so much. If nothing else can give you hope and strength right now I hope that knowing that you saved my life and you are everything to me may be able to help at least a little bit. You are the only light in my night sky, you are the smile that can brighten my day, the voice that can show me that I am cared for, and soothe me, you are the only person in my life that cares about me and loves me. You may not know me and realize this, but you are everything to me. You are the reason I am alive day to day and I will thank you and love you for that for the rest of my life.

If you ever need ANYTHING and I mean that, I will gladly dm/text/call/facetime, etc because there isn't anything I want more than your happiness and success and if there is any way I can help you be less upset and under less stress even if only for 15 minutes, I would be delighted to do that.