Notes

Dear Jason,
you really did have my heart and i had a feeling we were going to last but sometimes it just doesn't work out. I just want to say i really like you and I don't know when it will end because i talked about you so much in a way that i have never talked about someone before. You really were my everything and my favorite person but sometimes i think that i was your everything or not even your favorite person. I just really liked you and i still do. i really wish you were still here. I have no one to cry to and no one to feel safe with because i felt that that one person was you. I know we only dated for a month but i honeslty somewhere in my heart and brin i love you jason and i really do mean it you were my everything once and i wish you still were. crying every night i thought things would get better but they really got worse. you broke up with me then my whole life shattered i didnt know my emotions i felt numb. watching these sad tik toks is weird but also they are saying things that relate to me so much that make me start to cry like i would never ee you again. seeing you in school makes me wonder if u really still like me but when i see you with some other girl i shatter inside even though i shouldnt because we ended things even though we did dosent mean that i dont like you or love you anymore i stilll have the same feeling when i catch you looking at me and we make this eye contact that i want to last forever but it wont. I just wish you could understand how much i liked you and how much i didnt know this was going to hurt. I never thought that i was going to like you but here i am crying mysef to sleep every night sience it happened. i dont know when these feelings are going to go away but i love you and i know it was only a month but that month was the best yet and i dont know what is going to top it. I wish a person would walk into my life and say your safe with me you can cry on my shoulder and laugh with me and i will be your home. But people these days arent like that. even if someone like that saw me they would think im happy because i put on this act everyday that im happy even though im breaking inside and i wish i could fix it. writing this knowing your never going to see this hurts because you are never goign to know how much pain i went through and then i try to cmfort the people that think they have it worse i say i wish i could understand when inside im hurting like i never knew someone could hurt before. Anyways jason you will always have my heart.