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hey its lenajee im in class listing to music be i im have some anxiety problem but when i get like this. I like to writetype because it keeps my mind going so wen i get like this i try to listing to music. Like i am now but im just not feeling like myself today i did eat today im probably not going to eat at all today ion why maybe becuz of my eating disorder but i am hungry rn but ion feel like eating rn i tried to eat today but my stomach did want it i drank some water today but im listing to bts so it kind of makin me feel better just a lil tho don't get me wrong i love bts an they make me so happy an they've helped me through my toughest times but lemme tell you how i feel rn. i feel like i dont have a purpose i hate when people treat me like im not want i have no friends which kind of sucks but at the same time it dosent i like being alone but i feel like its gonna get to much for me an ion wanna get depressed again ive been doing so good taking my meds an everything i just wish i had somebody that actually appreciates me an want me to be around but not everyone's gonna like me an i get that but its like i literally have nobody in my life my parents (mainly dad) are always yelling at me an i told myself thats i wasn't going to step foot in my house for the next three days but i ended up going home for my mom and my sister shes very abusive (verbally) when her an my dad are together they are so toxic when it comes to me they dont like me my dad is soooo mean to me but its okay ig the boys in my class are mean also but i have to deal wit it on way or another i really dont know what to say anymore i dont wanna say too much because in om a school computer but i think ive said enough for right now.