Notes

I'm not sure how it started especially since we never made it official but he was my boyfriend. I think both of us were hesitant to give it a name. I came across him on ask.fm and I stayed on anonymous for a long while, but we hit it off from the start. Probably because we're so alike, and I became addicted to him. When I came off of anon, our relationship just got better, I guess. He just liked me at the start, and it was nothing serious. Neither of us could have ever comprehended falling in love through the internet, and about two months later he had a girlfriend. It wasn't so bad, because we weren't in love. He broke up with her, because the timing wasn't right. The two of us hadn't stopped talking and we still seemed to like one another, so it all continued. He got back with her a month later, because this time round the timing was right, and then ended it again. I was still fine with it because I wasn't in love with him then, but after his breakup, I think both of us started feeling a whole lot more for one another. He said he loved me a couple of months later, and I knew I did too. He's moving to another country now, and doesn't want to drag me down. He ended it in January, both of us knew it was coming. I understand that he did it selflessly. Still, it did break my heart, not to mention his. It's been three months, and I'm still in love with him. I think he's moved on, but he does still seem to care, so who knows. I cut off contact with him a month ago, which was shitty of me but I found myself getting better, I wasn't so sad anymore, when he'd seep into my mind at 12pm in the afternoon when I was surrounded by people, wishing he were there. He sent me a message a couple of days ago, and it probably meant nothing to him, but he's consuming my every thought again. I don't know how I'll stop loving him. I don't think I ever will.

Sorry for how sloppy and rushed this is. Thank you for listening. Thank you so much.