Notes

I would in a heartbeat . But whatever happened has happened and there's nothing that we can do to change it. I know as well as you do that you're not going to believe a single word of this but I swear it is the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth. Yes I make mistakes, I hurt people and I let you down but when I say sorry I mean it and I do. I mean every single word. You mean more to me than you'll ever know and I wouldn't change the memories for the world but realistically all this is completely pointless if it's not going to make the slightest bit of difference. I get that you're mad at me and I know fine well that you hate my guts but please forgive me? I really didn't mean for you to get hurt. Today's society is messed up as it often sees the nicest people end up getting hurt the most and it is them who end up paying the price for the mistakes made so this is going to change and from this point you don't have to have anything to do with me. You can walk away right now and never look back if that is unquestionably what you want.You don't have to carry on paying for my mistakes and if you were to walk through the door and never look back I would understand. Everyone at some point in their lifetime will make a mistake, that's all part of human nature, but it doesn't mean that they or indeed others have to keep paying for them for the rest of their lives. It doesn't mean they're bad, it just means that they are human so please don't put yourself through this when you don't have to. None of this is your fault! I know it is not what I want, far from it, but ultimately it is up to you. You can choose whether to walk through the door or not. Whatever you decide to do in the end is fine but just know how sorry I am and in time I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me... xx