Notes

well this is my first time wrighting in here so im just going to tell you how i feel and how my day went.

4/26/22
my mom took my phone from me and she when through it and ig i was acting like i was grown which i dont understand how but the she was texting my friends like me and the last time she did that i lost that friend and i was really sad about that and i mean i still am sad about that but there's nothing i can do about it i just have to let it happen bc at the end of the day my feelings don't matter:) tbh i feel like i could be more open with my mom but i cant because she always so qwick to yell at me or not agree with me witch i hate like i would tell her everything that goes on at school or how im feeling ever since that meating we had at school but yk it doesnt matter but if i say something wrong shes just going to take my phone and make up an exues as to why i am the way i am which i dont think is fair to me like i want to trust my mom but i cant and it hurts like some times i wish i can just cry because sometimes i wish i could just sleep and never wake up or sleep my pain away but i cant because i have to wake up at some point and listen to people yell at me for god knows what and it just gets annoying and theres noing i can do about it

4/28/22
today i had practice witch i mean it was good i was tired and wanted to go home bc i wasn't in the mood at first. welllll imma switch this to Jordan and i mean i love him a lot still but ughhh it just bothers me bc he knows what hes doing and he thinks its cute when its not hes out here playing theas girls like there nothing which is not fair to me nor the girls hes talking to and it makes me mad but there's nothing i can do because we are not together yk but i kinda wish we would not act like that and i wish he was more of a i have a gf i cant fw you but instead he tells people hes signal when hes not but he says that because he wants to have hoes and he wants the attention from the girl that's he messing with but he cant just own up to it so istead of owning up he likes to lie which makes me mad but again i can do nothing bc we are not dating. well i have to go to bed gn ill try to wright when i can.

5-2-22
welllll i got my phone taken again because my teacher wanted to tell my mom that i was skipping class when really i was just in a different class asking about my work like at this point my feelings and what i think don't matter bc they aka my mom won't believe me witch i hate bc i don't know how to feel like he made it sound like im the worse student to ever livewalk earth but oh well there's nothing i can do about that because my mom will believe him and not me because he is the teacher and I'm not.