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I'm Really Depressed Right Now, I Feel Like Crying So Much, But I Can't. All My Tears Are Already Gone, I've Been Through So Much, No One Understands My Pain, Behind My Smile Is A Tear, A Lonely Child, I'm No One, No One Needs Me, Or Wants To Know Me. To Be Honest Me Trying Suicide For The Third Time Is Better Than Living In This Hell Of A World. I Don't Get It, I See Everything Different And I'm A "Creep" And I'm "Stupid"! I Don't Get This Anymore! Everyone Is Here For A Reason! But I'm Not! I Was A Mistake, My Birth, My Life, Suicide Wouldn't Make A Difference, It Might Even Help The World, "The Lauren Virus" I Should Be Known As That, Because Everyone Runs Away From Me, Everyone Is Scared Of Me, Everyone Hates Me. What's The Point Of My Birth If I Just Make The World A Bad Place! I Don't Understand Anymore! Bleach Didn't Work! Hanging Didn't! What's Next!? I Don't Care Anymore, As Long As I'm Out Of This Hell Of A World! I'd Let A Murderer Kill Me, A Kidnapper, Kidnap Me! Who Would Care!? No One! Welcome To My World! Want To Know What My Life Is? Here It Is! Everyone Are White Dots, You're The Only Black Dot In The World, In History, Everyone Bullies You, Judges You, Runs Away From You! You Try To Blend In When You Were Born To Stand Out! At First You Think It's OK. But Then You Suddenly Realise That You Were A Mistake, A Virus, Dirt! Everyone Tramples On You, Ignores You, You're A Ghost To This Planet! Dissapear!