Notes

Good morning love, I'm sorry for last night, I really am, I know apologize are probably the toughest things to do and I'm no better then anyone else out there, I didn't want to hurt you, I didn't wanna repeat my mistakes but sure as hell, I guess I did😔, thank you for telling me, I wont be using any names that make you feel uncomfortable, I didn't mean to degrade others, that wasn't my intention either, they can be them I have no interest in that, only in you, ill be more selective with my word choices so I dont miss lead. I love you and im trying my best not to hurt you but I just keep doing it. Meeting you was a great thing, talking with you was even better, the closer we got the better I began to feel about myself, I mean how couldn't I? I had everything, I had the cashflows, I had the cars, the houses, and now I had the girl that I really admired. I admire everything about you, your attitude towards life and knowing your self worth in a lost world is something extraordinary, spending hours with you feels like minutes, and not a day goes by without remembering the smile on your face. As far as Intentions really go, my only intentions are to love you and not hurt you, but it seems a lot like I cant even get that right😔. You've made me feel a ton of emotions that I haven't felt in a really long time, somedays I feel great about myself and other days I feel really bad but I've never felt unloved by you and to be honest I don't know what to do. I cant promise you that I wont call you that name some day in the future or did what I did a few days ago, because I know at some point in life I will, but I promise you I'll limit it as much as I can.