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okay i wasnt going to talk about this because it's my story and i had 2 choices, tell my community, or forget about it. and now i guess i really dont have much of a choice. im gonna keep this as short and as simple as i can cuz its the worst year of my life and i dont like thinking about it lmao

basically, in high school i was going through a really bad breakup (not romantic) between me and my (ex) best friend. they were the only person i trusted and i ended up regretting it when they started to spread my secrets around the school. secrets i hesitated to even share with them in the first place, one of them being that I was taken advantage of in 8th grade by a senior. i was 14, he was 18. my ex best friend was the only person i had told since i was so uncomfortable with the whole situation, and they ended up telling EVERYONE. so i moved schools, after being bullied and harassed for months. somehow my new school found out about it and i completely broke. i purposely overdosed on sleeping pills on May 26th that year. obviously i'm alive right now, but i was in a comma for 3 weeks. afterwards, i was put into a hospital for mental care. it helped in some points but i still had some parts that were wrong in me. i'm way way better now thanks to you guys and i'm happy to announce that i'll be one year clean of self harm on March 7th :) i know i put on a happy persona and most of the time its genuine, but theres days where i'll be so close to relapsing and theres days where im one step away from just going insane. thank you guys so so so much for all the support, i dont plan on stopping streaming anytime soon <3