Notes

i now realize how far i have come. though it doesnt seem like it, i did! i went through so much pain..i truly thought i lost myself and i couldnt heal. i may be in pain, but i know i have others who care and love me. it's like going through constant battles in my head, the evil and good, the good can win, the evil looses. the evil wins, the good looses. i felt so numb, i couldnt even take of myself. i cant describe how i truly feel right now.. but i do know i gotten way better than how i was.

i cant tell if im overreacting, but i really wish i never knew you. a girl falling in love with a fictional character? worse than falling in love with a bee. i guess i could say you're my comfort character, but it just hurts everytime i think about how you're not real. i cant even bare to look at you without thinking how i could just be in your arms. its so dumb! im writing this so i can get over you just being in my head 24/7.

my mind is full of rushing thoughts. i really need attention im so ungrateful
i just wish i could find my true love i hate it here i could be so much better why do i feel like this why do i keep putting myself down lol why why why why god let me die
why cant everyone just leave me alone my family would have it so much easier if i didnt exist
i dont think you'll understand the earth can be so beautiful
am i too much to handle i wish i could have someone to talk too