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lmao ok idk why u want me to say this to u but ok but hi saniyah 🥰 yep its fat bitch kira jay ik u will never read this so idk wtf im doin this 🤔 she jus said if i had to write u last message wha would u say so ye ima do it eny way bc i feel like i gotta get it out 🥱 but ye hi saniyah 🥰 i hope your good like really good an i hope life is goin well oh shi its making me cry alr 🤣🤣 i have so much to say but idk wha to say if u get me lmao ik im dumb i jus wanna say thank you like fr thank you so much u changed my life like completely u are one of the best ppl ive met and ur such a good person like the first time i met u was i was like hell no bye then u became the person i love the most i never thought there would be a day when u left me but when u did it hurt so bad i felt so damn alone like i lost bsf an i rmb ne time u wrote me a massive para an when u left i read tha atleast 600 times i miss us lo-key like so bad i miss how i could sit there an tell u anything an now i cant even trust a word u say ima tell the truth here when we was in a chat 3 days ago an after u left i couldn't get u out my head like i have so much love for u its crazy like if some one asked who would i spend the rest of my life with i would say you eny day even tho u do me so bad i still love u so much i rmb the 1 times u told me u had a gf my world crashed like fr i cut off so many ppl for you like its dumb an ik ppl say u cant blame a cheater for cheating the crazy thing is u didn't even cheat on me we wasn't even dating but tha day my heart shattered like fr ughh why am i crying like a bitch but yea as i was saying we wasn't even dating an i felt so hurt an not good enough so i gave u a second chance an i tried so damn hard like fr i tired my best to keep you but then i found out u did the same shi an i wanted to die sm like fr i was so confused bc i really didn't know wha i was doin wrong an why u picked everyone else over me i used to sit there an cryyy bc i didn't feel good enough for you tha shi would eat me up inside then i lost my self an i stopped caring i stop goin out i stop eating i started hurting my self more then u came back an then i got pregnant with jay an i was so happy for a min jus for a little while i felt like i did it i felt like i actually made u want me an u fr wanted to be with me but then i found out ur gf jus left u for ur brother an u jus wanted someone to cry on so i stayed an i sat there worrying about u day an night crying bc i felt so bad for you felt like you want about to kill ur self an when u got back together an u didn't need me no more i felt so use-less an used an played an lied to an cheated on i felt like shi like fr shit then u started blocking me on sc then vu then messenger an i had no one to talk to an the time u left was the hardest time of my life like fr tha time i didn't talk to u my whole life fell apart i had no one at all an the one person i trusted the most left an idk wha to do with my life i didn't know how to live how to get up in the morning an eat food an get in the shower an walk to dogs an get out my bed an pick up my phone i was lost then i was in the hospital for a couple of days an i saw my mom cry so much an tha broke me even more an to keep it really with u know idk wha to do with my life so many ppl have walked out of my life i dont even know who i am eny more i can not stand in a mirror an look at my self bc i will brake down like fr i cant stand there an tell my self im worth it bc the person i loved didn't make me feel that at all not one bit ik that's hard to say but its the truth never will i ever let someone into my life like i let u bc when u leave its the hardest thing in fucking work ahhhh im crying like a bitch ur never even gonna read this so idk why im doin this shi all im tryna say is thank you for letting me know tha jus bc someone tells u they love u they don't really mean tha shi an to be mean to ppl who want to try an love you an to NEVER EVER fall for some one again bc you will get shut down but yea lmao an even tho we isn't never gonna grow old together an live how i wanted but yea all i did was try to under stand you an know u u told me u went threw alot im jus tried to help but ig i was in the way tbh ion even know why i stuck around so long i was prob jus seeing if i could get wha i gave givin back ur the love of my life an i will never leave u idc how many time u leave me bc im alw gonna be here to hug u when u fell sad or alone or just need some one to talk to i dont eve want to love u i jus wanna be happy an to move on with life an jus forget about you an it hasn't been easy while ur gone lmao an it broke me down to a million bits when u left an even tho ima miss you everyday u make me wanna be a better person an even tho u wont be there to see me grow into this better person im not even mad at you im just in so much pain i jus want you to think everytime u feel sad that you got this bc ur a strong person an ur loved by everyone an ur doin so good an dont matter what happens don't matter if u brake up with ur gf or if u dont ur if u fall for some one else an they dont love u bck i want you to know ITS NOT UR FAULT bc ur really hard on your self ima stop writing now bc im doin this for nun an u wont even see it so ye there u go asha lmao its kinda keep but yea tha wha i would say