Notes

hola, mi amorcito ( ˘͈ ᵕ ˘͈♡) i'm sorry if this is hard to read but i'm throwing up my emotions in this because i haven't written a letter for you in soso long and i miss it :( i'm sorry for not doing it but, as you already know, i've been having a lot of trouble with my emotions for a while (not that my feelings for you have changed, but expressing my feelings in general has been really hard for me this past year) and now that i'm tranquilito and in Peace i finally get to sit down and write for you again, so you know how i've been feeling this time we've been together so far.
dating you has been one of the most amazing things that has ever happened to me, let along meeting you. everyday spent with you is a day i spend in peace, in my safe little space where i can be myself without being judged or hurt on purpose. i had the chance of meeting you in an early stage of my life, and i feel so honored to have met one of the best soulmates i'll encounter in the rest of my stinky, turbulent life. gladly you're a nice, funny person whom i can share ANYTHING with. from my angry thoughts, to the sad and the happy ones. i get to tell how my day went to such an understanding being who knows exactly how to make it better if it was already good, or cheer it up if it wasn't really the day i expected, and i'm so grateful to you about that.
being with you feels like finally finding the right person. when i imagine us going on stupid little dates, cooking together at 3 am, going on picnics and stargazing, it feels right. it feels like i finally found the person who i was meant to do all of that with. i can't wait to duehacer all of that with you, and hold your tiny little hand (yes, i know you'll probably kill me because i called your hand tiny, but i'm taking that risk) for hours. i dream with the day i get to be in your arms, knowing i'm safe and warm and that nothing can hurt me as long as i'm with you (and that you're also safe as long as i'm holding you tightly). i can't wait for the day i get to see you kiss romi goodnight, patting her little head oh so lightly and caring like she was made for you to love, and to brighten your life in the nicest way possible. i want to see you be careful, i want to see you happy, i want to see you angry, sad, sick. i want to see you in all of your moods because i know i'll love you the same through all of them, if not more because our love gets stronger each time we go through something hard and decide to stay together. it's like we say "no. our story is not done yet". and i love that about us.
i don't say this noviamente, but i'd love to spend each and every single day of the rest of my life next to you, being that source of unconditional love and support for you as you've been for me. i want to be the other person on your "frequently bought together" amazon meme and go through all kind of adventures next to you.
finally, i would like to tell you that i love you so much. i love everything about you. from your personality, to your body. i love your smile, your hands, your cute little nose. i love your eyes, which hold a thousand stars i'd explore for hours, and the tiny little moles everywhere in your body which i'd love to trace like a bunch of stars aligning in beautiful constellations. i love your eyebags, your acne, your scars, your trauma. all of that that society has told everyone it's not loveable and has to be fixed right away. you'll never have to be ashamed with me, because i truly love you so bad and that won't change because of any your insecurities, nor sickness or sadness. i'm devoted to be with you until our time as a couple runs out and there's no love for us to enjoy anymore, and then enjoy the time we have as friends like we used to be. you inspire me to be something greater, you gave me new goals and new dreams, and i'll spend the rest of my life making sure i give you the same.

loves you forever,

kai/kino.