Notes

etho - i told bobo that amor lived in the foster system and we were separated but that was a lie, a really big one
dad had killed amor, and i remember i went numb for days afterwards. he fucking... he fucking killed amor in front of me, there was so much blood and amor kept screaming out for me, i remember crying a lot and screaming for him. dad had taken us both to the basement, amor was hiding behind me but dad grabbed my arm and dragged me to the chains, removed my shirt, and chained up my arms above my head and whipped me. i thought that was the worst, god i was.. only twelve, amor was six. he walked back to amor and kneed him so he was on the ground, i remember crying out for dad to not hurt him and trying to get free while dad dragged amor to the torture chair - a chair i barely lived from when i was ten, amor was small and young- he wouldn't survive that. but dad just laughed at my pleads and begs for him to stop while he chained amor into the chair and he fucking turned it on and amor kept screaming in pain and crying out for me to make it stop, i remember i was shaking a lot and crying, screaming too, my throat was raw as i was forced to watch until my baby brothers body went limp and his screams died, dad had rushed to stop the chair and bring amor back but his small body was gone, dad let me down from the chains and i remember i watched him as he dumped amors body into the end portal to get rid of it. he and mom were quiet for days while i was hiding in my room for weeks,, just numb with the constant burn of tears