Notes

Good day, I can't believe it is already 1. I'm groggy and frustrated already, and we just rolled out of bed. Feel sad about yesterday because it kept feeling like I was at the verge of something but I spent most of the day with Zo and Imara and then improv and I feel like I'm not giving enough time to be with my friends. The past few days have been so wonderful and exciting and productive, i am only now starting to feel like I'm going somewhere with this work, performing and performing and performing and doing and doing and doing and I wonder if it has something to do with having space away from everyone else. However, remember when Imara and I transplanted plants together? That was such a beautiful time spent. I want to get better at this dance of together/alone, between them, communicating needs and Idk. Feeling like I have not a lot of time before I need to eat lunch and then prepare for Renet and then teach Renet and then have dinner and then meeting... you know? And I feel like a failure again because I don't have concrete goals, although I started setting some yesterday. i really feel like I should have prioritized time for myself yesterday, although going to Market Wagon was super fun! And improv together was fun, it was amazing to see someone right there and confront them and just see and be seen, reminded be of those good early Meisner days of being and taking the first thing and oh so juicy.

So here I am... I want to get back into performing, to have things keep arising, to make work and find focus! And work on this score and keep reading about these amazing bacteria, and all of it all of it all of it, walks, etc.

Breathe. Take care of yourself. Drink water... Where was I when I was feeling air? What happened?