Notes

I don't want to make a huge arguement out of this. But since you're always the one who complains and lets out your feelings which is good and all, I always end up trying to patch up things. For once I also want to tell you how I feel about you. Sorry if this sounds harsh or not but whatever. Not like the things you say are harsh as well.

How it is right now you're the one complaining about me and I try to keep things together. If I wouldn't have tried to keep things together we wouldn't even be a couple by now.
There's things you dislike about me and things I dislike about you. This is one of them. You always expect me to change when you don't change either. You give up way to easily and stops and then complains. You've said that we wouldn't fit together and maybe wanted to break up, then why haven't you already done that and still stayed with me and kept complaining. You always try to change me rather than accept me for who I am, sure I can change a bit but I can't change my whole existence to your liking nor can I. Unlike you I've accepted everything about you even the things I dislike about you, but in the end I've come to like them a bit since they're the things that make you, you. And the "you" are the one I love and like. I know this is both of ours first legit relationship compared to the ones we had when we were young and they were just for fun, and because of that it makes this relationship a bit harder since we've never had any proper experience which makes it more important to try work thing out. But it can't always be you who complains. How many times have I complained about you in a serious way outside from when we get into situations like this. You have to accept things about me like I accept things about you.

Complainign won't make things any better but the process to make things right are. But we can't do anything about it if you aren't open. Like said being in a relationship is to be open about your feelings instead of keeping them inside you, which will slowly eat you away. And that's why we need to be open and prevent it. Without that non of all the relationships in the world would work out. Relationships that don't work out is usually because they don't talk about it so things are left unsolved or they give up way to early before things are being solved.

As of things are like now I'm also beginning to give up like you. If I hadn't had faith and tried to keep things together we would've never been in this relation this long since you gave up. Last time we had this you broke up and immedialy regreted it. Which I asume you still had faith to keep things going but now you gave up again and we're here again.

Like you said before next time we meed and if you can't comfirm your feelings you'd break up when I leave, I don't want it that way. After the 2 days you said you needed and you figured out you don't wanna continue then break up, because I don't want those other days that I would think be good to be a lie. That would just end up hurting you and me more. You have to be and act about liking me which is just a lie which would hurt you, I'd know you did that so it would also hurt me. So it would just be better to break up if you figured out your feelings and you wanna break up with me than base it upon a lie. I do hope you'll figure out your feelings next time we meet, because of how things are now I'm beginning to think like you but still I know I do honestly love you wholeheartedly and still do.

When we first met I honestly believed we we're a perfect couple. We had fun together and had a lot of romatic momentents unlike now. Which comes to this also "A relationship isn't a relationship without romance" which we barely got now.

There is probably a lot more I could write about you and me but I honestly can't be bothered since I don't want this to make a huge arguement. Maybe it was just better to keep quiet..