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Emotionless
Not being able to feel anything not gonna lie its kind of scary. You don't feel happy, sad, mad, joy it's just nothing. You try to think of things that makes you happy like family, love, doing great things but there's no emotions there. It feels like you something just took all your feelings away. Even feeling empty don't feel like anything. As you try to smile it just goes back to a straight face. So you look at yourself in the mirror and as you look into your eyes, you just see emptiness like there's nothing there. You try to think what made you feel this way. You try to come up with things and rationalize it but there's nothing. You don't even think the same way you use to. Your head is just empty of thoughts. The more you try to think, the less thoughts is there. So then you try to think how it's gonna be when you interact with people but still there's nothing. No smiles, no emotions nothing. You just sit there looking empty. It just doesn't makes sense. You don't feel hot or cold. There's just nothing. So now you think when you do interact with people you're gonna have to put on a fake smile and act like you actually feel something. You just don't know what to do anymore. So you lay on the floor looking at the ceiling wondering of you're ever gonna feel again but it's nothing. You just feel nothing.